I checked in with my doctor, and yes, I very likely do have an ulcer. (There is no way to know for sure without another endoscope, but I wont be getting one of those anytime soon – I appreciate the Canadian health care system it is so much better then so many alternatives out there. Especially when it comes to emergencies, but unfortunately non-emergent specialist appointments for things like a suspected ulcer, can take months (and months and months) and may never happen because the criteria to get a referral is so stringent). The good news is that I now have non-expired medication. The bad news is that the medication will take a few weeks to kick in.
My symptoms are spot on from the last few ulcers that I’ve had, so my doctor is confident that the problem. If my stomach gets too empty, I’m in pain. If I eat, I am in immense, crippling pain. It’s a weird pain, it’s a combination of sever pain and the desperate desire to vomit. But, I cannot vomit. Instead, I eat small amounts of water and whole wheat bread throughout the day. And some juice. That’s it. And let me tell you, it’s been less then a week of this diet, and I’ve had enough of it!
It was one thing to half starve myself to avoid the pain last time I had this, before Little MPB. But now it’s not really possible.
Keeping up with a toddler requires nutritional food.
And, truthfully, for me, just being a happy person requires more of a balanced diet then just bread and water.
While we had a fantastic long weekend together, it was just me taking care of Little MPB while Mr. MPB was away fishing with the boys (it’s their yearly trip, which he skipped last year). Little MPB and I had fun playing outside in the beautiful sunshine. I loved not working for 3 straight days, and just playing with my favourite little guy. But, I am completely exhausted. In fact, is there a word for being beyond exhausted? Because, that’s what I am – beyond exhausted.
But what pisses me off the most about this, if I had paid attention to my body, I would have been able to catch this early. If I had listened to my stomach, I wouldn’t be this sick right now and I wouldn’t be facing a 4-6 (possibly 8) week recovery.
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