On Being Positive
I try really hard to be positive. I try really hard to focus on the good. I try exceptionally hard to see at least a glimmer of hope all the time.
But you know, not every day is great. It doesn’t always come easy to me.
For me, often being positive takes effort. My early life events have taught me not to get my hopes too high. So, my natural perspective has always been that of realistic, I feel that I am fairly grounded in my expectations.
While I hold onto hope, I also do not get over the top excited for most things. I know this is partially grounded in my fears of things going wrong and my desire to keep the potential hurt to a minimum.
So, while sometimes it is hard, I’ve made a decision to be as positive as possible. Maybe not over the top optimistic about everything, but at least positive about my life and making a positive impact on the world.
This means that sometimes being positive can take a conscious effort on my part. Some days I feel myself sliding into a rut. I end up seeing the worst in people. Feeling down. Or just being grouchy. I let my hurt from years of losses, feelings of family neglect or hurtful people dictate my emotions. Sadly, too often, I give these events and people the power to influence my daily life.
And yet, looking back I realize that the more I practice being positive, the easier it it.
I look back at the last year and I am thankful that I was able to take time to focus on the good things in life. I am thankful that I was able to indulge in 365 days of happy to remind myself of the simple pleasure of life. I am thankful that I have a supportive husband who tries to make me smile and reminds me that I am very much loved every single day.
I look forward to the future, and I realize that we will be okay. I realize that I cannot predict the future, but I can do my very best to make it great with each and every decision I make. As someone wise recently said:
Even if you don’t have a garden, you can make one.
Even if your grass isn’t green, or you can’t grow grass… You can dream it up.
And so, today I commit to continuing to dream and continuing to make my garden greener, with flowers blooming brighter and more vibrant every day.
My life may not be what I once thought it would be, but you know, it is pretty darn good.
I am pretty fortunate for the amazing people I have in my life. And, I look forward to many more days where I experience happy tears because I am overcome by joy and love from those in my life.
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