Leaving on A Jet Plane, I Don’t Know When I’ll Be Back Again

  Posted on February 9, 2016 By

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We are on our way.

I don’t think either one of us slept last night.  We tried, but the combination of excitement, fear and good old fashioned nerves made it a lost cause.

We were up early to shower, get dressed, lock up the house and head to the airport.  The airline recommends 2 hours before take off for international flights.  Mr. MPB required 3, because you just don’t want to miss the flight that will unite you with your child!

Today’s itinerary involves a long flight, and even more driving.  Possibly stopping somewhere to buy some baby stuff on our drive.  We have a bunch of stuff with us, but we still need a USA car seat, diapers, wipes, etc. (mostly just stuff that just didn’t make sense to fly with us).  And at some point we will probably find ourselves a hotel somewhere along the drive in an attempt to sleep.

Tomorrow we plan to meet our potential birth mother.  I can not lie, I’m nervous about meeting her.  We’ve been texting for a while now, but meeting in person is rather intimidating!  It’s another one of those situations where I wish I had a manual.  Just like the first phone call I am wondering:

  • How do we introduce ourselves, do we hug?
  • How do we even start to thank her for just thinking we are worthy and choosing us?
  • How do we know what to even talk about?

The only new question I’m facing is, what do I wear?  She has seen us in our profile book, but still, first impressions matter and my outfit choice clearly matters!  (Yes, I can be vain and now I’m limited by what I have in my suitcase).

I am nervous, yet my heart is so very hopeful.

Now that we are through the big scare of last week, I’ve surprisingly relaxed.  I truly think she’s not going to change her mind.  My level of confidence is almost weird and definitely should be considered somewhat odd and scary.  She has the right to change her mind, I absolutely respect that, I just don’t expect her to.  In my heart, I think this baby is our son and we will come home together as a family of 3 and 1 dog.

Yet, I’ve noticed for the last few days that I have been sitting on the verge of tears. I seem to be ultra emotional, which I think is probably normal for most first time mom’s.  So I’m working to just take it moment to moment because the reality is that for the next few weeks we have absolutely no control of our lives.  We have a one way flight booked and a car booked.  We still have not booked any hotels.  And we have no connecting flight in case we have to fly between states.  And of course, we have no idea when we will get to go home.

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62 Comments on “Leaving on A Jet Plane, I Don’t Know When I’ll Be Back Again”

  3. It’s happening! It’s now! I wish you and Mr. MPB very safe travels and a wonderful meeting with the woman who is changing your lives! I think everything will go well. I can’t wait to hear all about it!

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  4. I’ve been curious since we didn’t hear from you yesterday! Good luck! I hope it’s magical, meeting baby’s mom. I think it’s going to go very well, it will feel natural. Have you ever met up with a blog friend? I think it will be like that – where you feel like you just saw each other the other day and pick up where you left off in your text conversations.

    Good luck, good luck, good luck!

    Sending love!

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  5. Aghhhhh!!!! Big big steps!!!! I’m excited to hear you are on your way!! I can absolutely imagine outfit choice and first impressions is going to be important. We are all human beings and can’t help but apply our first impressions. This is kind of like the biggest job interview ever!!! I bet she is just as nervous about making a good impression. BUT you have already started to build a relationship with your potential birth mother, and she chose you both for good reasons! so I am willing to bet it is going to be surprisingly easy first meeting once you are there!! Wishing you all the luck on your big adventure 😊

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  13. WOW!!! I am so incredibly excited for you, and I can’t wait to hear news of the birth of your son and the finalization of the adoption. I love your confidence, and hoo boy do I feel you on the first-time mom emotions — I feel like I haven’t been able to stop crying all week. Safe travels, best wishes, and giant hugs!

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  14. It’s happening?! Every emotion you are feeling is you about to become a mother. Such a flood no matter how you come into motherhood. I love that you are feeling your most relaxed. I feel the same, birth mom is not going to change her mind. She has chosen you and mr. Bmp. You are the ones. Yes, you most definitely hug 🙂 all the best!!!!!!!

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  16. This is so incredibly exciting! Document EVERYTHING, and once you’re home, use a photo service like Shutterfly to make baby MPB a book all about your trip, your first meeting with birthmom, the first time you hold your son, your travels home, etc. I promise it will become his favorite book. Oh my goodness, GOOD LUCK!!!! *hugs*

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  19. Yay I love this!!! I would 100% be the same way! Like what the heck do you wear??? I would think the same things too. All I can say is remember she is probably just as nervous as you are and having the same thoughts. She didn’t pick you because you dress cute or because you greet people with a hug. She select you both because she can tell what’s in your heart which is what matters! Hugs!

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  23. I woke I the middle of the night thinking I hadn’t read a post from you in awhile and here you are. I’m not overly religious but this seems like one of those situations where saying this is appropriate so I’m going to say it: Godspeed. We are all thinking of you xxx

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  29. Amazing moments like this are rare through our lives. Take in and hold on to all the details as you will tell this story a million times through your life. Wishing you wonderful stuff around each corner… Take care!

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  31. Hoping everything goes smoothly! I’m so happy you are in a more relaxed state and I agree that the emotional stuff is totally normal given what you’ve been through/are going through. Can’t wait to hear more updates!

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  32. What an amazing journey you’re embarking on! I love that you’re the most relaxed you’ve ever been. Oh all the great pictures you’ll have of this event to share with baby MPB one day. Safe travels and sending you lots of prayers 💙

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  34. Omgomgomgomgomgomgomg it’s happening I’m so excited!! Thoughts and hopes and pure will that this all works beautifully and you’re home again soon with your son! ❤

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  35. Safe travels and good luck. I know it’s trivial to say don’t worry about how to act/say during your first meeting but I think things will come so naturally between you all, that worrying will just get in the way of the day. Warm wishes!

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  36. Oh my goodness! I don’t want to write a book here so I’m just going to email you when I (hopefully) get all the kids down for a nap this afternoon. Just know that I love you guys and am praying for everything to go smoothly!

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  37. I always look for your posts daily and when I didn’t see one yesterday I was hoping that was a good sign. I am sending so many happy thoughts your way. Travel safe and enjoy every single minute.

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  40. Oh my goodness. It is happening! I am nervous and excited and just so happy for you. You’ve got this. You are going to be great. Good luck!!!!! xxxxx

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  41. So excited! Good luck & safe journey. You are going to be fine when you meet, somethings you can not plan for but you will naturally know what to say and do and I am sure she will be confident she made the best choice ever. I will be thinking of you. x

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  43. This is so fantastic!!! I know updates will be scarce and I understand why. You all will be in my thoughts though as well as my prayers. I’m so extremely excited for you and can’t wait to hear everything when you are finally able to update again. I hope you have safe travels and no trouble.

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