Having a Child is Emotional!!
If nothing else, the last few days/weeks, have taught me that having a child is an emotional experience. (As if somehow I wasn’t already aware of this?)
For the first time ever we really thought our child was a real possibility. Then, once again, we thought the future we had been dreaming about was vanishing before our eyes. And now, we are back to cautious optimism. (I came to loath the term cautious optimism whenever we were pregnant our doctors seemed to love the term cautious optimism). Honestly, it’s been an emotional rollarcoaster!
And yet, this time, we have to proceed with real tangible steps. This time, we cannot lock ourselves in our house and calculate each next step, hoping it will be good, but planning for the worst.
This time, we have to face reality and we have to do so at least somewhat publicly as our ability to become parents includes people outside of our marriage. (That said, we still have not told any family about our adoption match and pending travel plans).
Our dog sitters are arranged. Our back-up dog sitters are on-call. And, the back-up to the back-up are also ready.
Our house sitters have been notified and are ready.
Our potential birth mom is waiting to meet us in person.
We have booked our flights. We have continued to pay massive bills. Our rental car is secured. Our hotel chosen.
We have no idea what will happen, but we know this time we cannot hide from the possibilities. This time, we will be facing whatever comes at us with our closest friends by our sides.
And so today, all I can say is here’s to hoping we come home with our little baby and not broken hearts.
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