I’m Ready To Be A Mom!
A while back we felt like we had to start putting together our nursery because we were told that we would need a picture of it for our profile book. So, we begrudgingly did it. Neither of us were happy about it. Neither of us enjoyed our time at IKEA picking out the required necessities to make our picture look good enough. In fact, it felt forced and we actually both really despised the entire shopping experience.
But, when I stand back and think about what has happened since then, its actually pretty amazing.
It’s almost as though once we were forced to start the room, we’ve voluntarily embraced adding to it. We add to it whenever we found the right piece for the right price.
The room now includes:
- The previously purchased crib and mobile that was given to us for free by some very nice people who sold us our pack and play.
- The previously hung pictures and artwork. Some from my mom, some that Mr. MPB bought for ‘me’ at Christmas, and of course a piece of art that was the first purchase we ever made for our child.
- The little green rocking chair I naively bought years ago.
- A dresser with a removable change table (bought second hand).
- An amazing, completely impractical, original 1960’s mid-century modern chair (bought second hand for an amazing price).
- A bookshelf (we had it in another room and we’ve relocated it to the nursery as it matches the nursery perfectly and was underutilized in the old location).
- Books! I love books so I’ve pulled out the few I have from my childhood and I seem to be buying more books all the time.
The other really amazing this that is happening now is that I’m finding myself less afraid to step in the room! It’s no longer a black hole in our house. It is no longer a room I fear in quite the same way. It’s no longer a room that represents everything we’ve lost, instead I’m starting to see it as a room that represents our future.
While I still feel a bit like an imposter when I buy the odd baby thing, I am starting to get really excited to fill our house and the nursery with more baby stuff (i.e. clothes, diapers, toys, more books, etc.).
Honestly, I’m finally feeling ready for this all to be real.
I’m finally getting really excited about our adoption without having to force myself to be excited. And this is pretty cool.
I can actually picture having a child in our lives, not just in our hearts.
Come on world, make this happen. I’m ready to be a mom already!
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