I normally post every weekday morning.
Today I did not.
Maybe, some of you have been wondering what’s up. And a few of you may even have been worrying because it’s so unlike me not to post. And a few others may have been excited that something adoption related happen (it didn’t so I’ll just crush that possibility right away).
So, I thought I’d write about why I didn’t post this morning.
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It’s been a long week from a work perspective, with a few adoption emotions just to keep me on my toes. I managed to sleep in my own bed every night this week, but it was still busy:
Monday – 15 hours, including 5 hours of driving.
Tuesday – normal, about 8 hours.
Wednesday – 15 hours, including 5 hours of driving.
Thursday – 12 hours, including 4 hours of flying.
Last night (Thursday) on my way home I realized that Mr. MPB was actually at an evening meeting. So, I decided to stop by Subway to grab dinner – if I’m going to have a rare evening at home along, I might as well put my feet up and relax, right?
So, when I actually walked through the door, it was about 7:30pm. Which truthfully was a few hours earlier then I expected. So, I promptly said hi to the dog and fed her super. And marched myself directly to our bedroom to some comfy pajama pants and one of Mr. MPB’s t-shirts. I then proceeded to turn on my computer (to write and blog, not work); put reruns of Friends on the TV; poured myself a nice glass of white wine; ate my sub; and, had less then three sips of wine before I passed out on the couch.
Photo Source (Adapted from original): Office.com Clip Art
I think I feel asleep at about 8:30pm! I woke up at about 6:30am and attempt to work and write. But, evidently I was still exhausted and couldn’t focus on anything. So, I found myself curled up on the couch and fell back asleep for a few more hours!
Clearly, I needed to sleep.
And now I’ve spent the day not sitting in front of my computer for work or pleasure. I’ve done a bunch of errands and catching up on life necessities. We now have milk in our house! I said hello to a friend and scheduled a round of golf with her. And, while it took three stores, but I was able to get a new power button installed on my cell phone for just $30!! Oh, and I even have shampoo again (I actually ran out this morning so buying shampoo moved to the top of my priority list).
As long as I don’t think about my work to-do list, I’m feeling rather accomplished!
So, here I am at almost 3pm on a Friday deciding if I should attempt to get some work done, or if I should just call it a day and start my weekend now?
P.S. Thanks for everyone’s comments and love this week – I really appreciated your support helping me pick myself back up after that disappointing email! Wishing you all a lovely weekend.
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I feel like I’ve been in a funk lately. The adoption wait has been on my nerves and work has me burning the midnight oil. It’s a frustrating combination. And, yet part of me is grateful for it, because the insane work schedule keeps my mind active, and gives me a lot less time to contemplate life and the waiting.
And so today I plan to do something different then normal. I’ve done it once before, months ago, and I thought the exercise might be really helpful to do again to help resent my current thought processes. I am giving myself 10 minutes to write down everything I can think of to be grateful for:
- Our dog. Seriously, I just love her.
- My stomach ulcer is under control. So long as I remember the drugs, I seem to be back to normal which is a good sign that I’m healing.
- I have a referral in to the plastic surgeon for a breast reduction. (I hear the wait times are about a year).
While I don’t love winter, I do love the fact that my fall wardrobe is coming back out. If nothing else, warm scarfs and cute boots are going to make me smile.- Less money stress. My crazy work schedule is helping reduce the crazy adoption bills, and that’s a real bonus.
- We booked a last minute weekend trip away. We got a great deal and we need a break, so I booked it. Guilty conscious be damned.
- I broke my cell phone. If no-one can perform cell phone surgery to resuscitate it, then I will have no choice but to get a new one. Who doesn’t love a new cell phone? (I’m finding the best case scenario in this, I’m actually not happy about it).
I wore a special necklace today.- I lost an earring yesterday from a set that I love. But, I know where I bought it and the designer seems pretty awesome so I hope he will be able to replace just the one. And if not, they were pretty cheap so I can just buy a new pair. Thankfully.
- My dog is staring at me right now and that makes me smile. Seriously, she’s adorable.
- It’s Thursday. That means I only have one more day to get through before I can try to relax for a few days.
- I am so tired right now that I am almost guaranteed to sleep well tonight.
- Mr. MPB. I’m always thankful he chose me.
So, my 10 minutes are up. And I have to say, I feel like this exercise in finding positives really didn’t work that well for me this time. Last time, I came up with 25 items and this time I struggled to come up with 13, and two of them are about our dog. And at 2, 4, 7, 9, 10 and 11 are all about finding best case scenarios in less then ideal situations. I like that I can see the good in some crappy stuff, and I also like that my crappy stuff has nothing to do with miscarriage or lost. In fact, it’s almost an accomplishment in and of itself that this list has nothing to do with children – loosing them or waiting for them. So, while life isn’t perfect right now, at least it’s better then it has been and I’m still trying to win the war and find happiness. And today, this will be enough for me.
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