Time Making Machine

It’s official, I’ve become a bad friend.

In my attempt to balance parenting and work, I’ve completely let my friendships slide.  Friendships in real life, and friendships through my blog.

One friend, a mother living in the excoriatingly hard adoption wait, I cannot remember the last time I texted or talked to her.

Another friend, one who I used to have lunch with at least once or twice a month, well, it’s now been more months then I can count since I managed to fit in a visit.  And soon enough she’s moving so I just know how much I’m going to regret this.

And, my blogger friends, the ones I regularly/semi-regularly email with.  Well, needless to say I suck at writing those emails.

At the moment I’m so busy that I’m struggling to manage my time.  I fully admit I place a premium on my time with Little MPB and Mr. MPB – they always come first.  And right now, work is more demanding then I’d like.  Oh, and then there’s basic life responsibilities like grocery shopping, taking Little MPB to the doctor (he’ll be fine, just lots of snot and coughing), putting gas in my car (which I almost ran out of for the first time in my life last week), getting my car fixed (because apparently it’s bound and determined to die or at the very least make us give way too much money to a mechanic), finish Christmas shopping, etc.

But this means that my social time, my time to spend with friends is basically gone.  Honestly, I feel as though I’ve become that mom who lets everything around her slide once becoming a mom.  Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE being a mom, but I really don’t want to be that mom.  I don’t have a lot of really good friends, so the ones I do have, mean the world to me.  And honestly, I miss them. And I have no-one to blame but myself.

I know this is just one of those busy seasons in my life.  But, I also don’t accept that as an excuse, I really feel like I’m dropping the ball on every person in my life outside of the MPBs.  I hate it.  It’s not like I can easily say to people, hey, I’m busy until January 2 – can we talk then?  That’s not how life works.  And more then anything, that’s not the friend I want to be.

So, somehow, I have to find time for my friends.  And, while I’m at it, I also need to find time to get back to some sort of fitness routine. Oh and I desperately need time to get my eyebrows done too.  A pedicure would also be nice.

Clearly, I have a time management problem.

Can someone please invent a time making machine for me?  I just need more time to do everything I want to do…

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A Few Thoughts

I am simply too tired for full sentences at the moment.  So it’s a list kind of day.

  1. It’s Friday of a long weekend.  Yay!!  Friends are staying with us.  Yay!!  Mr. MPB is going to be away.  Boo.
  2. Remembrance Day is so important to me.  I had grandfathers who fought in wars.  I have a cousin in the USA military.  But, more then those related to me, I have an appreciation for those who stand up for what is right.  Often times I struggle with the politics behind wars occurring today, but I know I will always support the individuals in our military.  And when Little MPB is a little bit older we will begin attending the local memorial service to help him learn about those who have died fighting for our freedoms and rights.  (We are not taking him at this age, when sitting still is basically impossible – he wont get anything out of it, and we’ll be frustrated while annoying those around us).
  3. My work/client situation just keeps getting weirder.  The best way I can explain it is that those around me have turned into a group of high school teenagers with over the top dramatics.  I didn’t enjoy this type of dramatics when I was in high school and I still hate it (no surprise).
  4. Little MPB is sick again or maybe he’s still sick but it’s taken a turn for the worse.  Either way, we are off to the doctor today just to be safe.  Given the visit last week, I suspect he has croup.  Have I mentioned before how much I hate the constant sick that comes with daycare?
  5. It looks like I’m about to do what I consider one of the craziest things ever – flying across the continent to meet a few amazing bloggers who have become very good friends.  I’ll share more on this another day, but I still cannot believe I’m actually seriously considering doing this!  And even more crazy, Mr. MPB is in full support of it!  Oddly, or maybe not, I am more nervous about leaving Little MPB for a whole weekend then I am about meeting these women in real life.  We’ve become such good friends that I just know it’ll be a fun weekend.

Happy Friday everyone.  I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

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