Rough Day

I’m having a rough day, and it’s only fair to point that out at the start of a rant.

I knew this was going to happen, I knew it.  Yet, here I am, frustrated and exhausted:

  • I’ve been working 10-16 hour days 6 days a week for a few weeks now.  I have 1-2 more weeks left at this pace.
  • The dog has been sick, but seemingly only at night.  So, I slept for about 2 hours last night (I begged Mr. MPB to wake up and take over, but he didn’t move.  Non-grouchy me should point out he’s done every other night lately).
  • We have friends arriving for the weekend tonight.  They know I’ll be working.  But working when friends are visiting just sucks!
  • I feel like Little MPB and Mr. MPB are having all the fun while I spend all my waking hours at meetings or at my desk or driving half way across the province to get to a meeting.
  • I have migraine.  Yet I have to keep working.  I want to puke.
  • Mr. MPB makes me breakfast nearly every day, but if I have to eat one more egg with vegetables I may lose my mind.  I normally like eggs, but as of today I’m done with them.  I’ll starve before I’ll eat another egg.  

Yet,  even with all of this going on, I was holding it together.  I was just putting my head down and working.  I signed up for this so it was time to suck it up and get to work.

Then, I literally lifted my head and looked at our kitchen and Little MPB’s play area and I realized our cleaners were coming shortly. Both looked like a bomb went off.  I don’t clean before my cleaners come, I don’t have time for that even when I’m not stupid busy.  But, I do pick up disastrous messes as to not completely embarrass myself.

I looked at the mess in the house and cried.  Mr. MPB has been doing more then his fair share around the house, we agreed tot his when I took on this massive project.  But apparently he didn’t realize this needed to be done before the cleaners arrive.  Why would he, I always do it.  And, then while I was cleaning up, he came home from a meeting and got mad at me for cleaning.  I had NO idea he’d be coming home and could help.  It’s not like I am psychic.  It needed to be done, so I’m making it happen.

I’m insanely worried I am going to miss a critical deadline.  I’m petrified of it actually.  I simply don’t have time right now.

I’m juggling too much.

I literally have too much work, and the sight of our house looking so horrible just put me over the edge.

I think I just need sleep.  And maybe more encouragement and support from Mr. MPB, not words of frustration at me.

And now I’ve realized I’m probably never getting breakfast made for me again in my life – because who makes breakfast for a complainy pants?!  That’s my biggest mistake of the day/week/month.  Because I will probably starve now.  Which means I’ll be over worked, lacking sleep and hungry.  Nothing good can come from this combo.

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18 Comments on “Rough Day

  1. Oh honey, I’m so sorry you have so much on your plate right now! Only a couple of more weeks. You will make it. YOU WILL MAKE IT!

    I know you just need some sleep. I hope you can get some rest.

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  2. You can do this. You are so tough. You will get through it! Sending much love. ❤️❤️❤️

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  3. Lack of sleep muddies everything. Just be easy on yourself and take one minute at a time. You got this!

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  4. Huge hugs. You are doing a great job, even if it doesn’t feel like it. I hope you get some sleep soon. It’s not a cure-all, but it can make a huge difference in mental and emotional well-being.

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  5. Almost done… hang in there. this too shall pass and once you are over the hill on this one, you will look back and be proud on how you all pulled along!

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  6. You are amazing. Everything will be alright soon. The cleaners will not mind the mess plus it does not matter anyway. Sending lots of strength!

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  7. If there’s one thing I’ve learned since becoming a mother, it’s that us moms can get through anything and everything life throws at us. These are the moments that will show you exactly how strong you are. And I happen to think you’re very strong! You’re doing a great job and will get through this rough patch. Have a chat with Mr MPB today and make sure he’s getting up with the dog if the dog is sick tonight so you can get some much, much needed sleep. He will likely be able to fall back asleep way faster than you once he’s done dealing with it. And, most importantly, remember to step away from your work for a few minutes just to take some deep breaths and rest your brain. Step outside and soak in some sun, or take a walk around the block. Those breaks will help to ensure that your brain stays fresh and won’t get overwhelmed so you miss those deadlines 🙂

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  8. Oy, I’m sorry that you are going through such a busy and stressful period. I can somewhat relate, as we moved house this week and I am simultaneously going through one of my busiest stretches at work in the past two years. It never rains, but it pours!

    I will tell you what I keep telling myself: this, too, shall pass. And we will be so happy when we can relax and SLEEP.

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  9. Hang in there! This too shall pass! All the encouraging thoughts I can think headed your way!

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  10. Do you want to know how to ensure Mr. MPB continues to make you breakfast? You need to give him permission from here on forward to refer to you as “Mrs. Complainy Pants” (lovingly, of course 😉 ). Find the humour and use it as a release. You are under such incredible stress right now. It’s okay to complain, to cry, to talk, (to blog!), and to laugh. As long as you are sharing, you are finding a way to release some of that stress. Sending hugs your way!

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  11. Oh I’m so sorry! You can’t catch a break when it comes to sleep. I’ve had that similar response to a chaotic schedule and home situation before and it’s not fun. I hope one the exhaustion passes you feel better. And just a few more weeks of this hectic schedule!

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  12. Just reading all of that stressed me out for a second! You have my sympathy and I hope everything is working out for you. If it hasn’t already, that is.

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