Some Days Just Suck
So, I was pretty sick for about 10 days. It wasn’t fun. And, I was pretty much useless when it came to taking care of Baby MPB, which meant Mr. MPB did basically all the night feedings and almost all baby things when our nanny wasn’t working. It was clearly not even close to a fair share of responsibilities, but asides from Mr. MPB being exhausted, he didn’t complain much. And honestly, that happens and that’s part of why we are married and co-parenting together. Next time he’s sick, I’ll do the same.
Now I’m feeling a bit better and am back with the world of healthy people. Which is good.
Except, well, I wasn’t a very nice wife when it came my turn to pick up the slack. You see, 1 business day a week we are nanny free – the idea being that we each spend half a day with Baby MPB – quality one-on-one time. Baby MPB and I spend the morning together (it’s our weekly swim date) and Mr. MPB and Baby MPB spend the afternoon together. Well, Mr. MPB had a last minute work thing come up and he turned to me to take care of Baby MPB in the afternoon. I got rather mad at him. I focused on what it meant t0 me – I would miss a deadline. Ya, I could probably make things work out without too much flack, but I was still mad. Mostly I was just mad that it was last minute and I wasn’t given a heads up.
So, we argued. We argued about the fact that we recently upped our nanny to 4 days a week in large part because he’s been too busy with work and I refused to give up my spin class (if I gave up spin class I would have about 6 hours a week, which would basically account for that extra nanny day). We argued because apparently I wasn’t nice. We argued because apparently I told him he needs to spend more time with Baby MPB (which, for the record I never said).
We argued, both throwing out any attempt at having a productive disagreement. And, I hate it.
Mr. MPB was rather mad at me. And when he gets mad he’s known to get very quiet and ignore me. The silence kills me, but being ignored just pisses me off.
I’ve apologized as I know I was partially in the wrong. Yet, I was ignored. Needless to say my blood is kinda boiling again.
And as I type this, this is where things stand.
I know realistically we’ll attempt to talk when Baby MPB goes to bed tonight. Yet, I also know because we both have too much on the go that we’ll also both be at our desks working. And, I also know that even with just one kid, neither of us is enjoying our current schedule of evening work. As we are in the thick of a few bad weeks of work, it feels like it’s becoming all too common of an occurrence.
Balance feels like a dream right now. And I think that is the crux of our argument today.
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