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I am trying to believe, I really am. But I have one nagging thought that I just cannot shake. We’ve lost 5 babies, why should this be any different? I want nothing more than to bring Baby MBP home with us. I want nothing more than to finally be a real mother. I want nothing more than to be able support and love our child as they grow up. But, life has… Read More
I often write about my fears about becoming a mother. I have written about my general cluelessness about babies, my fears of not being the typical mothering personality for our child and my pondering about what kind of mother will I be. I know I will make mistakes and I think what often shines through is that I’m truly afraid I’ll make mistakes when it matters most. I’m not perfect, and I… Read More
My Perfect Breakdown 