Sometimes I wonder, what will it be like to be on the other side?
I’m on the other side of recurrent pregnancy loss now, in that we aren’t having miscarriages.
But, I’m still in a sort of limbo-land, in that we know eventually we will have a child through adoption, yet we still don’t. And the timeline is outside of our control.
So, as much as I worry about my actual parenting skills, I also wonder, what will it be like to be on the other side? To really be on the other side. What will it be like to be an actual parent?
Will I be a good mom? I’ve never really liked most children all that much.
How will we manage working from home and raising a child – will we find the right balance without killing each other or neglecting something important?
Will adoption make the rest of our lives messy? Will it make life harder?
Will I be tolerant enough and yet strict enough at the same time?
What will it be like to walk our child to their first day of school?
Will our child be healthy?
Will our child be respectful and compassionate?
How will our child interact with other children?
Will our child be healthy?
What color of eyes and hair will our child have?
What will their favourite sport be? (Please want to play soccer, I so desperately want to be a real life soccer mom).
Will their smile light up a room? And their laughter be contagious?
The world is full of possibilities. And as much as I want a road map to our future or a crystal ball showing me the way, I am so very excited to uncover the answer to each and every one of the questions.
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This Sunday Fun Day, is all about food.
First, we had fun this week as we are harvesting lots of veggies from our garden on a regular basis now.
Second, on Saturday we cooked. And we cooked A LOT! We made a total of about 25 meals for Mr. MPB and I together to put in our freezer for future busy days. Almost all the vegetables are fresh, organic and local, as we participate in a local food co-op during the summer and harvested from our own garden too. So, our freezer is now full with all of this:
More specifically, our freezer is now stocked with:
Spicy Beef Chili
(crushed tomatoes, tomato past, various beans, fresh bell peppers, onion, hot sauce, crushed red peppers, salt and pepper)
Potato, Broccoli and Carrot Soup
(potatoes, broccoli, carrots, onion, garlic, butter, olive oil, chicken broth, cream, bay leaves, salt, pepper)
Purple Potatoes
Sauteing Veggies!
Veggies on Slow Simmer
Pureed Veggies
Soup!
Lasagna
(ground beef, fresh bell peppers, kale, tomatoes, tomatoes past, chives, hot sauce, ricotta, mozzarella, cottage cheese, parmesan, eggs, parsley, crushed red peppers, salt and pepper)
Beef Cannelloni with Extra Meat Sauce
(the same meat sauce as the Lasagna – ground beef, fresh bell peppers, kale, tomatoes, tomatoes past, chives, parsley, crushed red peppers, salt and pepper)
Three Cheese Manicotti
(goat’s cheese, mozzarella, cottage cheese, parmesan, eggs, fresh red peppers, parsley, salt and pepper)
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