Since it’s just the start of 2017, I feel like I should be writing something about the end of 2016 and the start of a new and fresh year. I feel as though I should be reminiscing over the good (Baby MPB) and the bad (the general state of the world) and looking forward to 2017 with hope and optimism.
But I just don’t have it in me right now.
It’s not that I cannot gush over Baby MPB and how amazing his addition to our family has been. I could talk about him all day long.
And it’s not that I don’t have some hope for 2017 (and beyond). I have hope. I have to hope that the world can and will get better. Because if I’m honest, what’s the point if there isn’t hope?
But, honestly, the state of our world kind of scares me right now, and in so many ways I don’t even want to discuss it. Heck, I don’t even know where to start on the list of things that I see as rather bad in our world (Trump, Brexit, wars, murders, etc.). I find on many days I am no longer reading the breaking news headlines because I cannot continually expose myself to such hatred and cruelty. Right now, I just seem to remind myself that at least Baby MPB is currently sheltered from it as we live in a relatively safe part of the world and he doesn’t understand news nor is he even exposed to it. And even though I can shelter him from it today, the fact is that he wont be sheltered for ever. And, even worse in my mind is the fact that so much of our world right now is not the world I want for Baby MPB to grow up in – I see a world that has a lot of people just scrapping by, not being tolerate of one and other and doing anything to get to the top of the ladder. I see a lot of people acting out of hurt and fear. And, I guess, it just doesn’t seem like a lot of people are living with hope for the future. This, just breaks my heart.
But, I see it as my job to help give Baby MPB the world I want him to grow up in – a world of tolerance, compassion, understanding, love and peace. Now, I’m not suggesting I can change the world or that I have the solution to create world peace, but I am suggesting I have a role to play in creating the world I want my son to grow up in.
So, I guess, even though I had no intentions about writing a New Years resolution or writing some sort of hopeful 2017 will be better kind of thing, I do have to look forward with hope and keep trying to make a positive contribution to the world. So, while I don’t see changing much in the way of my daily life, I do have to do my part to enable hope and share compassion and love. So, I will continue to live my life centered around love. I will continue to advocate for tolerance and be an active supporter of anyone who is marginalized in our society. And so through 2017 (and every year thereafter) I will continue to show my son these attributes on a daily basis so that he will learn them and hopefully be enabled to live his life also to hopefully create a more tolerant and loving world.
If you like this post, please feel free to share and please click the follow button on the side or return to myperfectbreakdown.com to follow my journey.
At one point in the last few days I started counting down the hours until everyone would be gone. Then I started counting down the minutes. It’s not that I don’t love our family, but it’s just been a bit too intense for a few too many days.
Needless to say, the last people were dropped off at the airport a few hours ago.
Which means the extended family has all left and our house, is our house again.
So, I am sitting at my desk and all I can hear is the sound of the keys pitter-pattering away. Baby MPB is napping. Mr. MPB is in the other room attempting to catch up on a bit of sleep. The dog is sleeping on the ground right beside my desk. I think even the house has let our a giant sigh of relief as we all seem to be enjoying the peace and quiet.
Mr. MPB and I should both be working right now, or at least cleaning up the remnants of the family tornado that went through our house in the last 12 days. In fact, I am positive in a few days when we are back into the swing of work, we will both regret taking these relaxing moments. But right now, these relaxing moments are exactly what we all need.
We need to let the dirty dishes sit a few minutes longer.
We need to not cook another meal for 10+ people tonight.
We need to not do another load of bedding or baby laundry just this second between naps and bedtimes.
We need to snuggle our little boy without prying hands.
We need to just be.
And, maybe tonight after Baby MPB is sound asleep, the adult MPB’s need to open that New Years Eve bottle of champagne that just didn’t happen on New Years Eve!
If you like this post, please feel free to share and please click the follow button on the side or return to myperfectbreakdown.com to follow my journey.
My Perfect Breakdown 