My Heart is Heavy
I am not an American citizen – I am Canadian.
My son is an American citizen – who will eventually hold dual American/Canadian citizenship.
I firmly believe this puts in me in an interesting position as a Canadian – as I am unable to vote in the USA, yet my child will be directly impacted by the outcome of this USA election and future elections.
And so as I write this, at 2:00am on November 9, 2016 (thanks DST), my heart is heavy.
My son is adopted. Trump’s campaign has specifically spoke against adoption.
My son is (likely) bi-racial. Trump has negatively targeted my son’s likely ethnicity multiple times during the election campaign.
My son may one day be part of the LGBTQ community. Trump is clearly not in support of this community.
My son and his future partner may one day choose abortion for reasons that are no one’s business (just like his father and I did). Again, Trump is clearly not in support of this.
And worst of all, clearly Trump has a large number of American citizens who support him and these views.
I cannot lie, I am truly scared for my son today. I am also scared for friends in the USA who fall into one of the communities that Trump and his supporters deem unacceptable. I cannot even begin to fathom my emotions today if baby MPB were a girl. Honestly, I am scared in a way that a year ago I never thought possible. (Heck, I didn’t even believe this was possible 24 hours ago).
I am also scared for the citizens of the USA. I am appalled by a trend I fear is global. I believe this election speaks volumes about today’s society, and in my mind there is a lot to be concerned about.
I acknowledge that I am also in a unique position to protect our son from potential social upheaval/negativity. As we do not live in the USA, I optimistically think we are unlikely to experience the same type social upheaval and potential targeted hatred as a result of this election.
As I sit here tonight, I refuse to give up hope that we can and will do better. I refuse to give into fear mongering. I will not live in the shadows of hated. I simply will not live that way and I will not raise my son that way. I have a voice and I will continue to use it to advocate for positivity, love, understanding and acceptance.
But, I will say as of tonight, Mr. MPB and I both agree that we will not be traveling to the USA anytime soon – particularly to the very conservative state that Baby MPB was born in. We may be willing to again in the future, but right now we need to be practical. We will wait, watch and see what happens in the coming months from the safety and security of our Canadian home. I hope we are over reacting, I hope our fears never come to fruition, but right now after all the campaign rhetoric, we just don’t know. For us, it is literally a matter of safety – we will do anything to protect our son, and taking him somewhere that he may be targeted because of the colour of his skin or the fact that he’s adopted just isn’t an option.
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