It is 2:44am.

I am wide awake and have been since 11:03pm. Guess what woke me up at 11:03? Yes that’s right multiple rapid fire texts coming through my phone from a bank scam (the quantity of texts made me worry something was wrong with someone I know and love). I dislike scams to begin with, but when they cost me a night’s sleep, I hate them even more).

And now I’m just counting down the hours until I have to wake up. My alarm was set for 6am, but I’ve pushed it back as long as I possible can, 6:30am, to sneak in a few extra minutes of sleep assuming I ever fall asleep. But who knows when Little MPB will wake up, realistically my day could start even earlier.


Today I have to drive 3 hours for work. Its going to be an extra long day considering my current state of insomnia. I’m already dreading it.

And to make tonight more fun (sense the sarcasim), I am hiding from the puppy. If I move, I’ll wake her up and the screaming will undoubtable start. Which means the entire house will be awake. And let me tell you, I have no tolerance for anyone or anything waking up my sleeping toddler in the middle of the night. So, I’m hiding (and typing my first ever cell phone post, sorry for the typos). And hiding means no Sleepytime tea or warm milk because I’d have to enter the kitchen. Of course both sleepyime tea and warm milk are usually great at helping me get to sleep. (I did manage to get to Little MPBs remaining easter chocolate eggs from the top of a shelf in the living room, so I’m eating those while watching Friends re-runs).

Honestly the puppy training was going well – we actually had a few good “normal” puppy days in a row (by normal, I mean no excessive screaming just typical puppy antics like nipping, jumping and trying really hard to sit). But yesterday the dog went back to her normal screaming ways and all us are are beyond sick of it.

Really, this week has just sucked. It’s been one of those weeks where I wish I could crawl into bed and hide from the world. But alas, that’s not an option so I just trudging along.

I’m not sure what’s going on but my normally loveable little boy is struggling so much these days with hitting/throwing and just generally being overly crying at the smallest things. For example at dinner last night I offered him some naan bread and he freaked out and cried “no bread” between sobs with tears running down his cheeks and he didn’t stop until the bread was removed from the table. I think he’s going through some sort of mental developmental leap, but gosh is he struggling right now and it breaks my heart that he’s so easily upset and is struggling to express his emotions.

I managed to get my car fixed this week. So rather then pay for something we actually want or even nees, we paid for my bumper to be reattached to my car. Fun times.

Oh and since this is nothing more then a middle of the night complaining rant, I might as well mention that it’s snowing here again. And it rained first so everything is basically sheet of ice covered in snow. Which will make my drive today extra fun. But even more annoying is the fact that I’m pretty sure spring/summer is not happening this year. Is this some sort of karma or mother nature’s retaliation for all the not so good stuff going on in the world?

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8 Comments on “2:44am

  1. I was on team insomnia with you last night too. After two hours I ended up taking a shot of nyquil to knock me out. It wasn’t the best resort, but it was my last resort. Today is a tough day. I hope your day doesn’t go too badly and some loud music cranked in the car on your drive does the trick to help wake you up!

    what is your email address? I have some info for puppy training that I want to send you!

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  2. It feels like the longest winner of my life! If we ever turn a weather corner I feel like everyone will suddenly feel new and rejuvenated. Fingers crossed that your day and travel was ok.

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  3. Ugh. You are. A saint for sticking it out with your pup! This week has been wretched over here too due to super sick boy who wakes up every 15 minutes crying “mama, I need you!” Mind you, we co-sleep so i am right there! Then we took my brothers elderly dog for the week and he is just as needy! This mama gets no break! Do something nice for yourself (like get a hotel room and sleep allllllllllll night long!) 😉

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  4. Oh man, I hope you got back to sleep! Damn I do love those Friends reruns. Good choice! I wonder what worked for the puppy for a few days and then suddenly didn’t? It’s like a newborn baby!! Little MPB sounds like he is going through some pretty normal 2 year old stuff so don’t stress about it. That is one thing that will pass for sure. I can’t believe the amount of snow you guys are still getting. Insane!!!! I hope you were safe with all that driving and that today is a better day.

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