I took Baby MPB for a check-up this morning. He is doing wonderfully. He’s grown an absolute tonne to the point where the doctor suggested more solids and less formula. Which is fine and should be easy enough to do, and should be happening anyways because of his age. So, all in all, we have a happy and healthy little boy.
While the doctor and I were chatting I asked him to test some of my levels – my thyroid, iron, etc. We chatted briefly and I told him I’ve been struggling the last few weeks and I’m really hoping I can blame it on something like my thyroid. I gave him the colesnotes version of what I wrote yesterday – that I’m feeling overworked, overwhelmed and overtired. He decided to test a bunch of stuff. Now I just need to make an appointment to get the blood work done.
He also asked me point blank if I’m feeling suicidal. I’m truly not, so I’m not worried about anything like that. Thankfully! But, I did tell him I’m feeling like I need a vacation from everything and we have a long weekend in the mountains in a few weeks. To which he said, good, book another one for next month too. And, I think I just might. Then he asked what I plan to do about feeling overworked, overwhelmed and overtired – a seemingly simple question. I told him I have no idea but I am hoping to see my councilor soon and at least talk through a bunch of this.
On the way home from the doctor appointment I call my councilor’s office to be put on her cancellation list for when she’s back at work. I honestly refuse to go talk to someone else, I’m not interested in retelling the story of my last few years to bring someone else up to speed. I’m confident we’d end up spending the whole session just on my back story and I honestly don’t see how that will help anything. So I’d rather just wait.
So, now I have a bit of an action plan:
- Get blood work
- hope for a random appointment to come up.
And, thanks everyone your encouragement and support the last few days.
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