An Observation, A Change, A Realization & A Question
I’ve done nothing baby related for a while now. We have not unwrapped the gifts we have received and/or items we have purchased on our own. Nothing. Instead the nursery looks like a bomb blew up in it as it’s become a dump spot for everything baby related.
I don’t know, after I opened the amazon boxes and saw what was in them, I put everything in the nursery and I stopped. I was beyond touched and thrilled, but yet I couldn’t bring myself to actually open each item. Maybe, I refused to take things out of the original packaging because of the fear that something could still go wrong? Or maybe, I’m still afraid of the actual physical space that is the nursery? Or maybe I’m just lazy?
Additionally, a few months back we started setting aside a bit of money every month to continue to buy things for our baby. Sort of a smart way to keep getting the things we need. But, I noticed that I haven’t been buying anything for a while. No new purchases of any sort, practical or not. I’m not a great shopper and Mr. MPB is even worse then I am, so I’m not surprised we let this slide. But, I think by not buying things the excitement has dropped off. Maybe it’s that I’ve been too busy with work, or maybe I’ve been avoiding it. Once again, I don’t really know.
I went into the room. For the first time, I sat down in the beautiful mid-century modern, 1960s original chair that I bought for the nursery (I still realize this chair may not work in reality, but I loved it and the only way I could justify buying it was for the nursery).
I texted a very special friend and sort of shared the big moment.
I began unpacking everything.
I expected to cry. I did not.
Instead, I smiled as I thought about how much baby stuff we have already accumulated, and yet smile again when I realized how much we still don’t have.
I was at peace as I opened all of the packaging and began a collection of packaging waste. And now, all the original packaging has been thrown out. Now, nohing can be returned just in case something goes wrong.
I laughed out loud as I remembered once saying “barring some sort of super human ability our child will need some sort of mechanism to get the formula into them.” Seriously, food items is the one thing we have a lot of now. Our child will be able to eat formula and even solids when the time comes!
I also realized our child now has a few toys and even a giant teddy bear. And bath time, it’s going to be fun!
I even went to the store and bought baby specific laundry detergent. Now, all the baby clothing and blankets we have collected are washed and ready to be worn. (Although still not folded, I still hate folding laundry).
And then I went online and bought a bunch of little things that we will likely need and/or really want when baby arrives – like pacifiers, a bottle brush and a baby thermometer. I realized having a few more basics on hand is probably smart.
And, while searching for things online I found something we don’t need- age blocks. I was slightly opposed to getting some because they have become a bit of fad and everyone seems to be doing it, but I found these natural ones fell in love, and I decided to jump on the bandwagon. They should arrive in a few days and I really hope they are as cute as I expect them to be.
I seem to be moving forward in baby steps.
I seem to embrace something, but then cannot move on to the next step.
It’s like I decide to do something and I do it. But then I stop, I freeze, and I have to build up the courage to do the next thing.
It’s all taking me time.
And I’m okay with that. I’ll take all the time in the world, because right now I have time.
If we get an instant placement or even a quick placement, then we’ll just have to step it up and plow through everything without hesitation. I’ll do it if I have to. But since I don’t have to right now, I wont force it.
Sitting there, I also started to question what do we need for when we meet baby? We will be flying somewhere, and we need to bring some stuff with us as my priority is meeting baby not stopping at target right when our flight lands. So, I think we need to pack a bag of absolute necessities for when we fly to meet our baby. Sort of like a hospital bag for baby. Any suggestions on what we will need?
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