My Perfect Breakdown

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This is a real and honest look at one of my biggest fears – and it’s not the fear of not having kids.  It’s the fear of losing my husband to our attempts to have kids.  (Thank you infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss for giving me this wonderful fear). We’ve been together for almost 14 years.  And for the first 12, I knew we’d be together forever.  There was never a doubt… Read More

I don’t often go here, both in my writing and in my day to day life. I try to stay far, far away from these feelings, but I’m jumping in head first for the next few moments. I never hate, and yet today, I am full of hate for our hurt. I feel frustration. I feel desperate for a solution or even just an answer. I feel so desperate right now. I… Read More