Lost

I just got a notice that I have been writing in this space for 5 years.  My Perfect Breakdown has existed for 5 years?!?!  I almost find that hard to believe.

And yet, for what feels like the first time in 5 years, I’m truly in a writing funk.  In fact, I’m struggling to write.  Which is suspect is obvious to many of my regular followers as I’m writing has been spotty at best for a few months.

And if there is one thing I know about me, I need to write to process life, both the bad and the good.  So, silence is not generally a good thing for me.  And yet, I don’t feel like I’m in a terribly unhealthy spot at the moment.  Realistically, I just feel like all my effort is going into the daily grind.

Between chasing the world’s cutest and active 3 year old (says every very biased mommy), running my own consulting firm, dealing with very ill family and facing my own struggles that come along with family illness and drama, I’m just at a loss for spare time to write.  Then add in the fact that I’ve lost confidence in WordPress after someone figured out who I am, I’m not even sure exactly what I should share and/or shouldn’t share.

For better or worse, I’m lost right now.

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11 Comments on “Lost

  1. I’m glad to see your post, just to know that you’re okay, even if you not…ok. Does that make sense? Anyway, you’re absence has been noticed, and I also second the previous comment, know that this community is here when you find the words. Holding you in my thoughts.

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    • Thank you so much my friend. I’m trying to find my feet again and find a rhythm to the days which includes writing again. I truly miss this space, and I know it’ll be good for me to carve out some me time to write more.

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  2. I think after what happened to you recently on WordPress I would be unsure about writing as well. Obviously I miss your posts but completely understand why you’re in a bit of a writers block. Looking forward to whatever you may want to share in the future.

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  3. Hope you find a way to feel comfortable continuing to write. You are appreciated.

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  4. I think I know how you feel. I was just thinking about this today. I’ve enjoyed blogging but now I’ve made friends and I sort of feel less anonymous, I also feel a bit restricted in not having the anonymity I had before. I also think I’ve changed in that I don’t have so much to write about because I’m not processing infertility particularly any more… It’s a strange one. You have to take care of yourself. I hope you come to a peaceful decision. And know you can always take a break and return! That’s what I’m doing with Facebook. It’s an interesting exercise.

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  5. Congratulations on making it to 5 years! I am very near to 8, which is crazy. My entries come and go and I’ve had to password protect things at times. I no longer feel like I have a strong community here, but I get out what I put it, so yeh. Keep writing, be it here or in a notebook.

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  6. Congratulations! Same here. It’s hard for me to write with a just turned 4 year old. I’m slowly getting back in to it, but am so happy for the time I’ve been able to share with him and the ability to give him so much of me. Seems like a small sacrifice and great reward. Hugs.

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