My Perfect Breakdown


I find myself jumping back and forth between ecstatic and petrified. Between hopeful and scared. I feel almost bipolar in my emotional shifts. The pendulum just keeps swinging from one extreme to another. We’ve had nothing but positive interactions and good news. Yet, I still find myself afraid.  At times, I am literally forcing myself to believe that this could really happen. I realize the fears are all based in our history… Read More

We spoke to the birth mom. We had a conversation. My anxiety going into the conversation was higher then I think it’s ever been in my life! And that’s not an exaggeration. Seriously. What does one say to someone who plans to give you the gift of becoming the mother you’ve only dreamed to be? What do you say to someone who intends to go into the hospital with a baby and… Read More