My Perfect Breakdown


I have this incredible fear. In fact, I’ve carried it around with me for a few years now. The fear is that Mr. MPB’s younger brother and his wife (whom we adore) will have a baby before us. . Last night this fear became a reality. It feels like the world is crashing in on me. I am devastated for us, when I should be happy for them. Thinking about it brings… Read More

I don’t often go here, both in my writing and in my day to day life. I try to stay far, far away from these feelings, but I’m jumping in head first for the next few moments. I never hate, and yet today, I am full of hate for our hurt. I feel frustration. I feel desperate for a solution or even just an answer. I feel so desperate right now. I… Read More