This morning I woke up early, alone in a hotel. (I’m away for one night with work again).
I turned on my phone and saw an email from someone I know, yet have never met. She’s an amazing blogging friend. And her friendship is nothing short of amazing.
Her email was so full of kindness and excitement.
Her excitement about the news of our match was nothing short of contagious.
We’ve told a few other people (a very few other people), and they’ve also been really excited. But for some reason this morning, her words hit me like a tonne of bricks.
As I jumped in the shower to get my day started, I found myself crying. We’ve known about our little one for a few days now, and yet I think today is the first time I really realized what is transpiring. I think I’ve been focusing on the uncertainty and lack of guarantees. But today, I couldn’t help but lean into the excitement and the hope.
I found myself crying because this might just happen. Crying because we have a healthy child who is still growing strong and waiting for us.
Crying because we have a son.
An actual little baby boy.
The child that I have been dreaming about for years, feels like a reality today.
For the first time, I really think we may have a family. We may have a child.
I simply stood there, water flowing over me, with tears running down my cheeks. I realized I already love this little boy more than I ever knew possible.
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The last few days have been intense.
In fact, it’s been so crazy that I think I’ve stopped sleeping like a normal person.
Here’s a quick summary of what we’ve been managing, while still working full time.
Day 1
- Find out about potential match via telephone to Mr. MPB. No information available. Schedule meeting with local agency for next day.
- Call counsellor to let her know and set up appointment with our family doctor – no answer, leave a message.
Day 2
- Meet with local agency. Learn about match.
- Call international doctor to book appointment to review match – no answer, leave a message.
- Call friend who is a doctor, arrange time to meet with her the next day.
- Call counsellor to let her know more and set up appointment with our family doctor – no answer, leave a message and play telephone tag.
Day 3
- Meet with friend who is doctor, learn more. Get very excited.
- Talk with counsellor, finally. She will arrange everything with our clinic.
- Buy a tonne of baby clothing from second hand baby store.
- Stop at ToysRUs, buy nothing.
- Spend a tonne of money on Amazon.ca
- Notify local adoption agency that we accept the match.
Day 4
- Receive authorization to speak to US agencies.
- MPB called US agency.
- MPB called US Lawyer. Talked with 2 case workers and lawyer.
- Discover BM is expected to deliver baby early.
- All the while we are both working and Mrs. MPB is out of town with work.
- Multiple emails with everyone involved, all day long.
- MPB and Mrs. MPB play telephone tag and text all day/evening long.
Day 5
- MPB and Mrs. MPB talk with lawyer and case worker together.
- Multiple emails with everyone involved, all day long.
- Phone call introduction with birth mother scheduled for next day.
- Reschedule medical review appointment with family doctor as birth mother phone call is now scheduled for the same time.
We are both working very hard to juggle adoption meetings with work.
As I said, it’s been intense! International adoption is crazy. Right now, we are just holding on for the ride and hoping that all the professionals do what they need to do as to not cause any delays or errors anywhere in the incredibly complicated process.
* Please note, I know I’m vague on details right now which is probably driving a few people crazy. This is an intentional decision because we haven’t sorted through what we are sharing and what we are not. We realize that adoption is compicated with many people involved and therefore not all the information we are learning is ours to share. And while my blog is anonymous, it may not always be, so before I can give out the details we need to figure out what is right for us to share and what is best for us to keep confidential. What I can say is that baby is healthy, birth mom is sweet and our hearts our bursting with hope and love for everyone involved.
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