The Christmas Season
I know for many this Christmas season is especially hard. Many people are longing for a baby in their arms, waiting through a miscarriage, remembering lost family members, etc. Sadly, this season is not happy for all.
This season, while meant to bring families together to create happy memories, just doesn’t always work that way.
For me, I have not forgotten my childhood Christmas’ before my mom and sister died – the magic of the season. I still remember my first Christmas without them like it was yesterday. I truly doubt Christmas will ever feel truly “right” to me without them with us to enjoy it. I hold these memories dear to my heart and I am truly thankful I have 14 years of memories to hold onto.
I have not forgotten all the past Christmas’ that we chose to skip family dinners and hide at home away from all the pregnant family members and the new babies. Last year, we didn’t even decorate for the season. I have not forgotten the harsh words we received for choosing to protect our own hearts rather then exposure our fragile selves to the pregnant family members and new babies. And, I have not forgotten my babies lost way to early to miscarriage. I’ll admit, I have always been thankful we never experienced a miscarriage in December as to not tarnish this one holiday in the same way that my birthday is a reminder of 2 of our losses.
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Yet, I am also thankful that this year will be different for us. Clearly my mom and sister will not be here, nor will any of our babies we lost too soon. But, Baby MPB is here. And the fact that he is here and is our son, deserves to be celebrated!
Even if this Christmas isn’t perfect, I am convinced it’s going to be the best Christmas Mr. MPB and I have ever had. I am determined to let just enjoy and step away from potential family drama. And more then anything I am determined to soak up every single moment of Christmas magic through Baby MPB’s eyes.
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Wishing everyone a very happy Christmas and holiday season, especially those who are struggling right now.
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You are so right! This season is hard for anyone who has someone or something missing from their life. I’m thinking of you and your family this Christmas! Here’s to making new memories and cherishing everything we can!
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Girl, I am right there with you on the family drama. Step away, take a deep breath, and make some Christmas magic!
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The holidays can be incredibly difficult for so many people, so I pray for all of the people in the world that for even just 2 minutes, they can feel the love and cheer of the holidays, as a tiny reminder that one day, it’ll be better….And I’m sure your mom and sister will be there watching you watching Mr and BabyMPB and filling your home with a little extra warmth and divine love….Happy Holidays to you and your beautiful little family, friend…this should be a pretty magical one for you… ❤
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Christmas can be hard, especially when corporate companies stick their “perfect Christmas” in our faces. Although I cannot begin to imagine how it is for you, I know that my Christmas has always been far from what Media tells me it will be like! I really hope you have a magical Christmas with Baby MPB and make some lovely memories 🙂
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Merry Christmas 🙂
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Merry Christmas MPB ❤️
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It truly is the season of being in a glass case of extreme emotions.
Wishing you and your family a very Merry Christmas. X
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Christmas can be a difficult time when you have experienced loss, but I think it is different for everyone. We just experienced our second miscarriage the week before but found it nice to spend time with family and experience the joy of Christmas with little ones all the same. Thinking of others in similar situations at this time of year and any other time x
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