So, we got yet another surprise in terms of adoption process that I haven’t yet mentioned and that we weren’t prepared for.
When all the paperwork was signed by myself, my husband, our birth mother, our social worker, etc. and we found out that the immediate relinquishment waiver is not in fact effective immediately upon signing. But rather it becomes effective at the end of the next business day. For us, with how the dates have worked out, this means we have to wait through the weekend. We’ve made it through Saturday already, just a few more days.
Please note that I 100% respect the birth mother’s choice to change her mind and I cannot even begin to imagine her emotions around, but this post is not about that.
Rather, this post is about my anxiety as an adoptive mom.
We have a son. We have been caring for our son. We’ve been with him since just moments after his birth, we love him with every ounce of our beings. He has literally spent every single moment with us since we left the hospital and spent our first (very sleepless night) together as a family in our hotel.
He is our son.
No matter what happens over this weekend, he will always be my son in my heart. No matter what.
The bond we have already, the love in my heart, nothing will ever change that.
And I simply cannot imagine having to give him back. I honestly don’t know how we will get through that, should it happen. Just even discussing the possibility breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes.
So, now we just have to find a way to get through the next few days without driving ourselves too insane with constant fear!
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