Strangest Moment of my Life
Since we decided to pursue our family via adoption, I’ve realized the strangest moment of my life will be the day I walk out of the hospital with someone else’s child.
Throughout life we are taught not to take things that aren’t ours. As young children we are all taught not to go with someone we don’t know, which also means not to take someone that isn’t ours. Kidnapping is generally frowned upon by all.
So, I’ve decided that walking out of the hospital with a baby that I neither took part in creating nor carried in my womb for 9 months, is going to surreal. To say the least.
Clearly, via adoption we will be the parents to this child and walking out of the hospital together as a family is exactly how it should work. No kidnapping will be occurring.
Yet, I’ve decided it’s not going to feel right. In fact, I’m 100% convinced that it won’t feel right. And yet, it might also feel completely right in the moment, I just don’t know yet.
And, I also have to acknowledge that while I’ll be walking out with my dreams coming true, another women, a mother, will be leaving with her arms empty. This is not a fact I can overlook. In fact, it’s a fact that will bind me to our future birth mom for the rest of our lives. Her selflessness and care for her child is nothing short of amazing in my mind. Her trust in us, is the highest honour I will ever receive in my life. And so, my heart will forever be linked to hers and I will forever be grateful to her. There is simply no-way to repay someone who voluntarily chooses to let you raise their child and call that child your own. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. And I can guarantee, that I will never take a moment for granted.
That said, I’m pretty sure I’m going to ruin the moment of walking out of the hospital as a family with some sort of sarcastic comment. Sarcasm is in my blood, so I know it’s going to happen. Either that, or I’ll walk out with tears streaming down my cheeks as I think about how so many lives have been forever changed.
(If I’m placing bets, I’m going with inappropriate sarcastic comment).
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