A Year of Blogging Already?!
When you reach your blogging anniversary it seems that everyone takes a moment to reflect on the previous year. I’ve thought about doing the same. I’ve thought that:
- I could ramble off my blog stats – how many followers I have, how many posts I wrote, what my most viewed posts are, etc. As someone who loves data, this would be a fun post for me to analyze and write.
- I could write an entire post telling you about how I have grown as a person in the last year. Something about how sharing my heart and my soul, the good and the bad, has lifted a weight from my shoulders.
- I could tell you about the friendships I’ve made across the world. The friends that have changed my life and I suspect many will last for years to come.
- I could write about how much I have learned from my fellow bloggers. Technical things like early signs of an ectopic pregnancy or details about reproductive immunology. And not so technical things like how to handle painful pregnancy announcements and how to shield ourselves form insensitive remarks from those we love.
- I could also tell you how much I’ve learned about compassion and love from my time in the blogging world. The love and support I’ve received from perfect strangers, who have encouraged me along the way and helped me see the happiness after a bad day.
While all of this is true, instead today I would like to reflect on how much my life has changed in the last year and therefor how my blog has also changed. When I started I focused almost solely on miscarriages and recurrent pregnancy loss. I wrote about our amazing friends, and our not so amazing friends and family. Almost every word I shared in the first few months was about our losses and trying to deal with future attempts. When I started writing we were in the midst of our 4th miscarriage, a very long and drawn out miscarriage that took 29 painful days to remove all the products of conception from my body. Since then, we have:
- Gone through a 5th biochemical pregnancy.
- Sought out specialized medical expertise out of country.
- Chose not to try again for another biological child after learning that the challenges before us are too great for us to overcome at the current time.
- Researched alternative options for having a family (i.e. gestational carrier / surrogate, adoption, childfree).
- Ultimately after months of debate and internal struggle decided upon open international adoption as our path forward.
- Started my 100 happy day photography challenge.
- Chose to continue my 100 happy day photography challenge.
- Endured a complete upheaval in my professional life that saw me leave the professional world to focus on my heath and recovery, and I am just now starting to look at returning to work in a regular capacity of some sort.
- I asked for help for one of the first times in my life.
- Learning to accept a more messy life then I may like and I am learning to accept the relationships in our lives for what they are.
So today, my life and therefore my blog is about so much more then I could ever imagined. And I cannot help but wonder what will happen in the next year?
Maybe we’ll manage to go to Iceland and I’ll have an awesome adventure and lots of pictures to share? Maybe we’ll find it within ourselves to forgive the hurt we still feel due to Mr. MPB’s brother insensitivity? Hopefully I’ll go back to work in some capacity? Maybe I’ll learn to accept the relationship I have with my parents for what it is, not what I want it to be? Maybe we will become first time parents? Who knows, maybe we’ll even have twins?
As I look forward to the future, the only thing I can promise is that I will simply hope.
I hope the next year will be filled with more happiness then the last few.
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