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Following other bloggers and learning more about the emotional consequences of infertility and miscarriage, I’ve begun to realize that there is are very real and deep rooted feeling of guilt, shame and self-blame for those experiencing most (if not all) types of infertility. I find these emotions fascinating because I have not once felt shame because of our miscarriages and I have never blamed either one of us for them. Although, I… Read More

The seemingly correct answer, as we were taught as children is 1. 6 – 5 = 1 However, this mathematical logic makes absolutely no sense in my circumstance. For me, 5 is how many babies I’ve lost to miscarriages. Yes, that’s right, 5 consecutive miscarriages. 5 represents my dead babies. 5 represents sadness, and some of the darkest moments of my life. I have 5 tiny holes in my heart, and scars… Read More