It’s interesting that surgery’s can be considered routine. In my mind, a routine surgery is one that is scheduled in advance to fix a problem using a standard procedure that the doctors are trained to do.

Because they are routine in nature, they shouldn’t be scary.

Yet, when the patient is my last living parent, I find it rather scary.

A routine surgery isn’t scary like a surgery to remove a cancerous tumor, where the results could literally be a death sentence (I had to sit by the bedside for that a few years ago, which was horribly scary, and I will forever be thankful the doctor was able to come out of the operating room and say “we got it all”).

This one is scary, but more like – holy sh*!, I like having my Dad around, this had better go well. You see, this surgery has nothing to do with cancer, it’s just fixing a problem in a joint. But, I cannot help but think about the fact that my Dad is not getting younger. There is something unsettling about being put under general anesthetic so that a trained professional can cut through your skin and re-arrange your insides. Plus, there are always risks and those risks make surgery scary.

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But, you see, the surgery was scheduled to start a few hours ago, and I still haven’t heard anything. But I also have no idea how long the surgery is actually supposed to last – maybe it’s a 4 hour surgery, or even longer? I failed to ask this question, so I have no concept of time. Or maybe the surgery didn’t start on time? And I don’t want to be annoyingly calling my step-mom asking for an update, when I know full-well, she’ll call me when she knows something.

So, for now, I’ll keep waiting. I’ll keep staring at my computer. I’ll keep pretending to work.

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