The Whole Truth (Almost)
Yesterday, I wrote about our divine weekend away in the mountains. And then last night, I re-read my post and I realized, I fell into a social media trap that I work so hard to avoid.
You see, I only shared the good stuff about our weekend – spending our days in nature, catching up with old friends, chasing Little MPB around, etc. I shared this magnificent photo, which was a true reflection of the lake we spent our weekend by – we were truly surrounded by nature at its finest.
But what’s missing, and I’m sure you’ll notice if you go back and read, I never mentioned Mr. MPB* or I in this post. I did this without much thought at the time because I was focusing on the good parts of the weekend. But, in reality, I think I was also ignoring/not acknowledging the downside of our weekend. The reality that made our weekend in the mountains not so divine.
So, here’s the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. On the drive to the lake, on Friday afternoon, I may have said something kind of mean to Mr. MPB (Okay, maybe not the whole truth because I’m not going to tell you what I said. I don’t want to air all our dirty laundry or embarrass myself in front of anyone who might read this).
Anyways, I’ve apologized profusely almost immediately. What I said was not the appropriate way to say what I was trying to say.
But now, it’s Tuesday, 4 days later, and I’m still living with 1 word statements/answers from Mr. MPB (unless it has to do with Little MPB, then he’ll give me a few more words if necessary). I understand that it wasn’t a conversation we were going to have while hanging out with our friends all weekend. But I can assure you there were multiple awkward moments for me when Mr. MPB wouldn’t respond to a question I asked or wouldn’t talk to me outside of polite group conversations.
And now, we’ve been home for a few days and yet the silence continues even though we’ve had ample time to talk. I’ve tried talking to him, I’ve even told him at some point he’s going to have to talk to me in real sentences again, and I got essentially nothing in response.
It’s clear he’s still seethingly angry at me.
But I can tell you, the 4 days silent treatment has given me a lot of time to think. Honestly, probably too much time. My main decision is that, I’m done apologizing. I’ve apologized with sincerity multiple times because I made a mistake and I acknowledge that I made a mistake. But, I cannot change what I said, it’s up to us to be adults about the situation to move past it. However, based on his current lack of words he clearly isn’t ready to move past it and is not accepting my apology, and I’m not part parrot which means I’m not going to obsessively repeat myself. Therefore, I’m done apologizing.
So, I guess for now, I’m just assuming that the never-ending silent treatment is going to have to end eventually. And until then, I’m just going to keep doing my thing (working, playing with and caring for Little MPB, helping out around the house, etc.) until he decides he either wants to move past this or he wants to talk about it.
*Please be aware that I am not looking for people to gang up on Mr. MPB. Honestly, I was in the wrong. And while I’m deeply annoyed by his silent treatment clearly he is taking time to process his response. And even though I don’t like it, I have to accept it.
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