THE Call
We just got the call. Like, THE CALL.
Our local agency just spoke with my husband. Our match proposal is still with our province officials, and the agency expects to receive it later today/tomorrow.
So, we have absolutely NO details. We know nothing.
We have a meeting scheduled for tomorrow where we will learn more. We hope.
In fact, in 22 hours and 51 minutes amongst other things, we expect to find out:
- Where our baby will be born.
- When our baby is expected to be born.
- If our baby is a boy or a girl.
- Birth mom’s medical history.
- If the birth father is known and involved.
- Our baby’s race.
I have so many questions and thoughts. And yet I don’t seem to be able to form coherent sentences.
- We have to pay a huge amount of money within 24 hours of accepting the match, we need to get our finances together.
- I have meetings scheduled next week. How do I cancel them without telling anyone it has to do with a possible adoption? Do I even need to cancel them? Do I need to?
- Our doctor needs to see the medical stuff. Can I get an appointment at the last minute?
- How are we going to deal with child care?
- Who do we tell? I’ve told one friend. Heck, I told her before Mr. MPB even hung up the phone with our agency. But now I don’t want to say anything to anyone. I want to be happy and I don’t want to answer stupid and naïve adoption questions from family and friends. Not today, I just want to be happy.
- Will it be a little boy or a little girl?
- Baby is going to need a name!! Eeek! I think it’s time to get serious about choosing a name.
- What are the interstate logistics?
- Seriously, we just spent $700 on extra books, and now we may never use them!
- Is the birth mom healthy? Is our child being cared for?
- Will we actually bring this baby home? Is this really our child?
- We will finally be the family we’ve been dreaming of for so long?
- Am I ready to be a mom? Like really ready? Can I do this? Am I going to be good enough?
- Our bathroom reno. Arg….not done yet.
- What do we need to buy still?! I haven’t even put our washed baby clothing away (it’s all just thrown in the crib), that should probably happen before baby comes home. Eeek…when will baby come home?!
- What do we need to pack to spend a few weeks in a hotel with baby. Oh my gosh, we have so much to do!!
I’m excited. I’m terrified. I’m elated. I’m petrified.
I am literally shaking.
And while all kinds of exciting thoughts are swirling in my mind, I have to keep reminding myself that the match might not work out, and this might not be our baby.
For now, I am going to remind myself to take deep breaths.
Breathe in and breathe out.
Today might just be the first day of the rest of our lives.
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What a wonderful Christmas gift! I’m hoping and praying everything works out. Your blogging family is here to help in any way possible! ❤️
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I am absolutely ecstatic for you both. What exciting times lie ahead and I wait with bated breath to hear about the homecoming. If it helps I don’t think any mum-to-be feels ready so you’re not alone there but as someone above said, newborns don’t require a huge amount, just you, their parents and the love that you will shower upon him/her. Huge loves and am crossing everything for you right now xxx
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OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!
Shaking with excitement for you!
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Oh my word!!!! My heart literally skipped a beat when I read this!!!!!!! I’m so so elated for you all, hoping that all goes smoothly and can’t wait for the next update! Xxxx
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Oh my god! I will not sleep until I knows more! Ah!!!
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Amazing!!!!!!!!!!!! Such exciting times ahead!!!
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Ahhhhhh!! I’m so thrilled for you!
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I hope everything works out and goes as smoothly as possible! Fingers crossed!
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Oh wow, this is so wonderful!! Prayers that everything works out as it should and that you get to bring your baby home soon. How crazy is that to think about?! Deep breaths, you got this.
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Oh my goodness this is soooo exciting!!!! Hundred of yays for you! xxx
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Oh gosh! I don’t think I’ve commented to you before but I’ve been reading for awhile. I’m so excited for you! I’ve got all my fingers crossed that this is your baby!
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OMG!!!!! I am so excited for you and hoping so much it all goes smoothly!!!! Amazing news!!!!! xxxxx
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OMG!!!!!!!!! Yay! Can’t wait to hear the next instalment. Good luck. May this be YOUR baby that you take home forever. Eeeeep! X
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I’m SOOOOO EXCITED!!! I can’t wait to hear more!!!
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Oh wow, congratulations! That’s amazing news! I can completely understand the elation and the terror combined. I can’t wait for an update, these are such exciting times.
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All I can say is how exciting!!!
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I had a really good feeling on Christmas that something big was going to happen for you guys before 2015 was over… I am positively overjoyed to read this post! keeping you & mr. mpb in all my best thoughts! come home little baby! ❤️❤️❤️
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I’ve got chills! Awesome news!! Good luck MPBs 🙂 Hugs xx
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F#&K YES!!!!!! Praying the next 24 hours brings wonderful news, no hiccups and smooth sailing from here until your baby is in your arms. I am so dang excited I wanna scream for you!
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Oh. My. GOD. I got chills! Soooo excited for you! I can’t wait to hear more once you know. Congratulations!
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OMG! This is too exciting! The best news. Its like a Christmas gift be a wee bit late, the best gift ever. I am sending lots of luck and will be checking for updates….I will be patient he he. I so hope this is the beginning for you.
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I just cried tears of joy for you! This is wonderful news and I can not wait to read the answers to all of you questions.
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Fingers crossed that this is it!!!
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So happy for you both xxx
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So so so so excited for y’all! I hope this is the one. Can’t wait to hear more 🙂 ~Jess
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Ahhhh! I’ve been waiting to see this post from you and now it is here! I can’t even imagine all the emotions you must be feeling. I am so excited for you! This is the best thing I’ve read all day. I can’t wait to read more (when you’re ready and able to share of course!) Yay! 🙂 🙂
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Literally jumping up and down!!! So excited for you! I can’t wait to hear more!!! XO!
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Omg I am soooo happy to read this post! If you end up in Iowa or the surrounding area and need any help at all just let me know! Can’t way to see how this progresses! 🙂
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Oh goodness!! My heart is so happy for you!! I will be saying a few extra prayers for you in the days to come!!
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Massive eek! I hope and pray it all works out.
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Fingers crossed for good news !
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OMG I”m so excited for you!!! I really hope everything works out and before you know it you will be swamped with baby needs and life and it will be so amazing!!! I’m so happy I can’t wait to hear how it all goes!!!
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Goosebumps! I literally have tears in my eyes!
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I keep coming back to read this post! I want to email you, but I’m not going to bother you. But know that I am over the MOON for you!!!!
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Fantastic!!! This is the best news ever. You guys are going to be amazing. This is just so exciting. Sending so much luck and love your way!! Look forward to updates. Huge hugs!!
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What Wonderful news!!! 2016 IS going to be amazing for you guys!!!
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Sooooooooo exciting!!!!
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I legitimately almost just cried. No matter what the rest of this journey is I a SO GLAD you got the call.
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Just want to say congrats again! I’ve gushed to you enough in emails recently…just know that I am thinking about you constantly and hoping for nothing but the best! If you need to vent, just shoot me an email!! I will email you my number as well in case you need it. Hang in there!
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Holy moly, this is SO EXCITING!! I can’t wait to hear more!! You’re going be a wonderful mommy to your sweet baby! xoxo
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Omg when I read this I got excited happy chills for you!!! I hope everything falls into place. Don’t worry about us in blog land, although we are so excited to know what’s happening! Best wishes to you, Mr. MPB, and dog on getting everything in order!
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Congrats!!! 🙂
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Wow! How exciting!
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Oh my God! How very very exciting!!!!
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The caaaaaaaaalllllll! Crossing everything that it’s falling into place x
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Omg this is so exciting!! So happy for you, can’t wait for you to update again!
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What an incredible turn of events!! Best wishes!
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OMG OMG OMG I cannot believe it!!!!!!!!!! Congratulations to you and your hubby!!!!!!!! What a big day!!!!! 💗💗💗
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This is the BEST news!!!! Congratulations!!! How wonderful!!
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SAY WHAT?!?! Friend, this is just amazing amazing news!!! I hope his is THE match! I’m praying for you guys as I have been and hope that this works out. All my love your way…this is just! Gah!!! So exciting!
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