THE Call

We just got the call. Like, THE CALL.

Our local agency just spoke with my husband. Our match proposal is still with our province officials, and the agency expects to receive it later today/tomorrow.

So, we have absolutely NO details. We know nothing.

We have a meeting scheduled for tomorrow where we will learn more. We hope.

In fact, in 22 hours and 51 minutes amongst other things, we expect to find out:

  • Where our baby will be born.
  • When our baby is expected to be born.
  • If our baby is a boy or a girl.
  • Birth mom’s medical history.
  • If the birth father is known and involved.
  • Our baby’s race.

I have so many questions and thoughts. And yet I don’t seem to be able to form coherent sentences.

  • We have to pay a huge amount of money within 24 hours of accepting the match, we need to get our finances together.
  • I have meetings scheduled next week. How do I cancel them without telling anyone it has to do with a possible adoption? Do I even need to cancel them? Do I need to?
  • Our doctor needs to see the medical stuff. Can I get an appointment at the last minute?
  • How are we going to deal with child care?
  • Who do we tell? I’ve told one friend. Heck, I told her before Mr. MPB even hung up the phone with our agency. But now I don’t want to say anything to anyone. I want to be happy and I don’t want to answer stupid and naïve adoption questions from family and friends. Not today, I just want to be happy.
  • Will it be a little boy or a little girl?
  • Baby is going to need a name!! Eeek! I think it’s time to get serious about choosing a name.
  • What are the interstate logistics?
  • Seriously, we just spent $700 on extra books, and now we may never use them!
  • Is the birth mom healthy? Is our child being cared for?
  • Will we actually bring this baby home? Is this really our child?
  • We will finally be the family we’ve been dreaming of for so long?
  • Am I ready to be a mom? Like really ready? Can I do this? Am I going to be good enough?
  • Our bathroom reno. Arg….not done yet.
  • What do we need to buy still?! I haven’t even put our washed baby clothing away (it’s all just thrown in the crib), that should probably happen before baby comes home. Eeek…when will baby come home?!
  • What do we need to pack to spend a few weeks in a hotel with baby. Oh my gosh, we have so much to do!!

I’m excited. I’m terrified. I’m elated. I’m petrified.

I am literally shaking.

And while all kinds of exciting thoughts are swirling in my mind, I have to keep reminding myself that the match might not work out, and this might not be our baby.

For now, I am going to remind myself to take deep breaths.

Breathe in and breathe out.

Today might just be the first day of the rest of our lives.

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115 Comments on “THE Call

  1. holy cow! I can only imagine what you are going through! I’m all jittery and elated for you guys!! Prayers being sent your way for a perfect match!!!! Can’t WAIT for your next update!!!!!

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  2. So many emotions I remember well – take time to remember what you’re feeling at every stage, rely on family and friends to get you things (the only thing we bought before bringing our baby home was a car seat). Newborns don’t require a lot, just love, diapers, and food really. Enjoy every second Mommy!!!!! xoxo

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  3. Ouuuuiiiii!!! Don’t worry about the readiness part – ie renos, names, etc, that’ll all work out without a doubt. Baby won’t care if the place is not “ready”, he/she just wants love and to be taken care of, which you’ll be perfect at, no doubt. Good luck with everything! I can’t wait to hear more! Xx

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  4. This is amazing news. I’m so excited for you! Make sure to take a few minutes to write down details of what you’re feeling and what you do each day. You’ll want to be able to tell your baby all about the days leading up to when you meet them and then take them home. I am so incredibly happy for you!!!

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  5. Omg omg omg omg!!!! I quite literally just started crying I’m so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let me know either here or fb if you need any stuff while you’re in the states

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  6. Oh my friend, you are totally ready to be a mom!

    This post burst me into tears. And you know I’m not that person. 😉

    Ok… Keeping calm for you and sending great, happy vibes. Good luck with everything you need to prepare.

    And merry belated Christmas! Looks like 2015 may be your year after all. ❤

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  7. YES!!!!!! Oh my goodness, this is THE BEST news! 2015 didn’t give up on you, and 2016 is going to be the year!!!! Your baby is here, or on his or her way — what a miraculous thing! I am so incredibly excited and happy for you! GOOD LUCK with everything! Also: yes, you are totally ready to be a mom. You are more ready than just about anyone I know. You’ve got this!!!

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  8. Oh my gosh! I’m so excited for you! I am all teary! I can’t wait to hear more. Sending so much positive energy your way. I so hope this is it for you.

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  9. Omg! OMG! The Call!!
    I hope hope hope this is it and it doesn’t fall through. Your family is definitely going to be in my thoughts these next few days/weeks. Keep us updated!!! ❤

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  10. Eeek!! I’m so excited and happy for you!! No one is ever really ready, but you are ready and you’re going to be a great mom! You already are! So so happy! Can’t wait for your next update! I’m going to be stalking your blog the next few days! 😊❤️

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  11. omg omg omg Omg omg omg omg omg. I am hyperventilating with you here, and jumping in excitement.

    I am sooooooooo happy. Prayers for u both, may it be the perfect match. Oh MPB, I am crying tears of joy now for u. Sorry didnt even read the whole post, just halfway and started dancing.

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  12. Eeeeek!!! I am so thrilled for your growing family!! I hope everything comes together just the way it needs to in then weeks ahead. What a beautiful Christmas gift for you!!!

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  13. Literally crying right now!!!!! Don’t even feel pressure to respond to my comments… You’ve got tons going on. I can’t even describe how overjoyed I am to hear this and how much I will be thinking of you guys in the days to come. I can’t wait to hear more!!!! Sending so so so so so much love and positive energy your way!!!!!

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  14. Woooooo hoooooooo!!!!! This is great news. I’m hoping with all of my might that this is just the beginning of the wonderful chaos that a child brings into your life. I can’t wait for updates! Congratulations!!!!!!

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  15. Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. I am freaking out excited for you! I also just found out that my friends who have been trying for 6 years got pregnant through IVF, such a happy baby day!

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  16. Yes!!!!! So excited for you. 😀 Looking forward to reading your updates!! Try not to focus too much energy on what the baby will need at first. I would say formula, bottles, diapers and wipes, a few outfits and blankets/burp towels should see you through those first few days. Both of my babies pretty much stayed in just a diaper and blanket those first few days while in hospital/at home. I’m just so incredibly excited for you!! What perfect timing too! A new year, a new baby. 🙂

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  17. OMG, OMG, OMG!!!! I cannot wait to hear the details…I’m shaking and totally want to cry right now. I so hope that this is it for you and Mr. MPB and that your dream is about to come true. Love you so much, friend!!!! Praying this is it!

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  18. Haha, sorry, I got so excited I hit send early. This is great news! I will be keeping my fingers crossed that everything falls into place from here on out! Looking forward to your updates!

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