My Perfect Breakdown


I hate the what if game, I do everything I can to avoid playing it. In my experience, it is a very scary game, the results can be disastrous as the self-doubt piles up. But, lately, I’ve had this fear creeping into my mind. For the first time I’ve started pondering, what if we do not get approved? What if the powers that be decide we cannot adopt a child(ren)? Then what?… Read More

So, after my last TWW ended with another BFN (negative), I decided to track what I did for the next few days. so that I could see how I cope, and how I move through the process of disappointment over a lost cycle to hope for the next cycle. So, here’s what I apparently do in the few days following a BFN: I drink alcohol. I rarely drink to excess, and I’m… Read More