Here is my fourth week of #100happydays.

Day 22 – July 28, 2014: Today I got my Martha Stewart / Betty Crocker on. Not something I would usually celebrate as happy, but honestly, if I’m looking for little things, then I am happy to say that, we have a clean clothes (this is likely appreciated by everyone I know), a fully stocked fridge, and we had wonderful home-made gluten free hamburgers for supper. So in an ideal world, this is all I would have to say about my happy photo. Instead, I must be honest. My first attempt at gluten free burgers was a complete and utter disaster. The burgers crumbled, and I ended up using my BBQ veggie basket to cook a pile of ground beef, rice, and flavouring into a crumbly dry meat-like mixture. (The rice/ground beef combo actually reminded us of the food we feed our dog when her stomach is upset which means we ate the equivalent of dog food for supper). Since the buns were prepped with fresh veggies, we still turned the meat mixture into a burger like concoction. And with every single bite they fell more and more apart to the point of requiring a bowl and fork to actually be able to finish eating. We laughed our way through dinner and decided maybe next time I’ll look at a recipe to figure out how to bind burgers together without breadcrumbs – left over rice is clearly not the solution! 20140805 - 100HappyDays_Day22

Day 23 – July 29, 2014: Today I went for a walk with my dog on a ridge overlooking a large park near our house. On our walk, I took this picture of part of the park below. We had a blast enjoying the warm weather together. 20140805 - 100HappyDays_Day23

Day 24 – July 30, 2014: Tonight, I took a crack at Jamie Oliver’s pan-fried curried cod served with quinoa. Without trying this was a gluten free, super easy to make, delight worthy of a happy day photo. 20140805 - 100HappyDays_Day24

Day 25 – July 31, 2014: Holy man, am I grumpy today which means finding happy was not an easy task today. Thankfully my husband made a cute effort to make me happy by bringing me home my favourite DQ blizzard (score without chocolate sauce). Not the best photo ever, but given how grouchy I was, at least took a photo. 20140805 - 100HappyDays_Day25

Day 26 – August 1, 2014: We went out for a long weekend of camping with friends. When we arrived to set up camp, the sun was setting through the clouds. I was out for a walk, and didn’t have my camera with me, so I ran back to the campsite (in my flip-flops of course) to grab my camera before the beautiful colours vanished to the night’s darkness.  It was truly a fleeting moment of happiness.

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Day 27 – August 2, 2014: We spent the day with our friends and our dog walking around Waterton Lakes National Park townsite. While basking in the glorious sunshine we enjoyed a great lunch on a patio; a walk along the rocky beach; and delicious ice cream.  This is a photo of one of the may happy moments throughout the day.20140805 - 100HappyDays_Day27

Day 28 – August 3, 2014: After a quiet morning reading at our campsite, my husband and I toured around in the park in our vehicle (due to his broken ankle of course, normally we’d spend our days hiking and fishing). We stopped at a few different places to enjoy the majestic scenery, and even managed to catch a peak of this bear as he foraged for barriers on the hillside.

20140805 - 100HappyDays_Day28Wishing everyone a great week filled with happy moments!

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As you presumably guessed by reading my post yesterday, I was obviously not interested in looking for the silver lining which isn’t my typical way.  And, quite clearly I let the feeling of fear and uncertainty linger.

Like everyone, I’m allowed a bad day here and there.

But, true to me, I never stay down for too long. I refuse to dwell on the negative, and I refuse to let fear dictate my life.  So, like normal, I picked myself back up.

So, today, after allowing myself a day of being fearful of what could come next, I’m happy to report that I’m doing much better.

I have decided I am actually really okay with our last cycle not working. I know, crazy, eh? But honestly, again true to my nature, my practical and pragmatic side got me thinking that another month of not being pregnant is not a bad thing, at least not right now.

  1. This give my body more time to detox from gluten and therefore hopefully reduce any possible internal immune reactions that could be occurring. We just went gluten reduced just over a week ago. So, by not getting pregnant yet, it means my body has more time to get itself straightened out.
  2. My allergy to grass is always the worst in the summer (obviously, as the grass is dead in the winter), so getting pregnant in the middle of the summer may not be the smartest thing we could do particularly if I’m having some sort of underlying immune reaction.
  3. More time to work on being healthy and being happy is not a bad thing. For my husband and I, another month or two of just being relaxed and enjoying each other is probably more needed right now then I’d like to admit. 2 years of high risk, high stress pregnancies resulting in 5 miscarriages, is a lot for anyone or any couple to take. Another month off to continue to recollect ourselves will undoubtedly be a good thing for us.
  4. I’ve been asked to do some short-term contract work with my mentor. I can work from home part-time this month, and not be worried about any negative repercussions to a potential pregnancy. This is ideal for me, as I think it will also help reduce my desire to return to some sort of full-time work again.
  5. My husband’s ankle remains broken, making me responsible for 90% of things around the house. Yesterday’s x-rays indicated that virtually no healing has occurred, and so he is in the air cast for at least another 3 weeks, and likely more.  So, he can spend a few more weeks healing up before we get pregnant again, because once we are, he will have to start doing a lot more around the house again as I will be limited in what I can do (i.e. no lawn mowing).  So not being pregnant means we don’t have the hire the neighbours kid to do our yard work, at least not yet.
  6. I love summer, and I’m happy that our last month of amazing summer will not be dictated by a high risk pregnancy (we really only get 2-3 months of summer where I live, so we’ve got to make the most of them). This means, I can still sit out on the deck in the evening and have a mojito or a glass of wine and just be. We can also go camping and fishing without being worried about being too far away from a hospital should we end up in an emergency situation.
  7. To ensure I can see the silver lining in all of this, I booked us a short weekend get-a-way to the US. Not a romantic weekend, or anything like that, but a weekend to see one of our favourite bands live. A high risk pregnancy just wouldn’t be conducive to a concert/party weekend.

Anyways, that’s it for me today. I’m off to enjoy the long weekend filled with beautiful weather. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

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