Why I Should Not Self-Medicate
I’ve never been a fan of self-medicating when it comes to prescription medications. Actually I kind of hate it, partially because I hate taking medications in the first place, but also because it inevitably leads to more questions and I clearly don’t have a medical degree to be able to provide the answer.
So, to re-cap, last week we had weird numbers for my progesterone blood work (CD 21 was at 4.1 and CD 23 was at 6.5). This could indicate late ovulation. You can read all about it here.
My husband and I decided based on tonnes of reading that I would start progesteron supplements on CD 23 because if conception did occur, progesterone is critical to implantation (my RE wants us to wait to start the supplements when pregnancy is confirmed). So, we ignored our RE and decided to do what the literature recommends and what all the other bloggers are doing based on there RE’s protocol.
Anyways, today is now CD 29, and I tested negative when I POAS. My typical cycles are 28-29 days long.
Initially the plan was to stop progesterone today if I tested negative. But, clearly life couldn’t be that simple.
If I ovulated late, doesn’t that mean I could get a later positive pregnancy test?
So, now, I’m trying to figure out when to actually stop progesterone. I am not a fan of dragging my cycle out longer then necessary, but I’m also not a fan of stopping the medication if its to early to know for certain that we are not pregnant.
The decision so far, is to call my RE, and lie – tell them we have a faint positive so they will order the blood test. The blood test will confirm if my beta is below 5 and therefore if we should stop the progesterone. Lying is stressing me out beyond believe. I know its the best thing to do, because they wont give me a beta test without a positive test. But, I honestly hate everything about lying.
So, now I wait. I should have the results sometime today.
I’m feeling very frustrated by all of this, not in an upset way like last week, but in a what the fuck holey man is this annoying way. I just feel like this entire situation was so easy to avoid, and yet, because of poor communication with my clinic, here I am left to my own devises and trying to develop a medical knowledge and treatment protocol that is far beyond my skill set. Hell, I have 7 years of post secondary education from very reputable universities under my belt, but I stopped taking biology in grade 12! I am not a medical doctor, and yet I feel like I’m starting to become one!
Yup, I think I need to find myself another clinic that will address my concerns in a timely manner…
And, maybe win the lottery while I’m at it, because my RPL journey is about to get much more expensive…
Or maybe, I should just learn to drink rum and coke to reduce the frustration? (that was totally a joke, I do not plan to become an alcoholic as a result of this).
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