Infertility Blogging Thoughts of the Day
I’ve had an interesting few weeks with blog stuff floating around in my brain. Nothing major, but a few interesting thoughts about blogging have been percolating.
First, I’ve been contemplating this whole blog thing. I love writing. I am enjoying sharing our story. I love the support I have received from others. I love the positive news coming out of the infertility group – I love the hope that these stories give me and hopefully other couples (side note – for those of you worrying about how to deal with blogging and being pregnant with healthy little babies, get over it and stop worrying about those of us who are not – you deserve to be happy and I for one love to hear about it!). I love knowing that some dreams do come true.Yet, I’m saddened by the continued heartache that women experience each and every cycle. I am saddened by the stories of a single pink line, of miscarriages and lost babies. I’m heartbroken by the stories about the hardship infertility causes to marriages with some even ending. I’m saddened by the stories of depression and anxiety as a result of infertility.
Through my months of blogging, there are even a few bloggers stories that I’ve grown to feel personally involved in and connected to – which I find so weird, because I don’t even know these women asides from their blogs. These women are at different stages in their infertility struggles, but regardless, whenever a post goes up from them, I find myself desperately hoping for good news and cheering them through the good and the hard the times.
But, sometimes I wonder, how healthy is it to be involved in infertility blogging? How healthy is it to be talking and reading about the most negative experiences in my life, and being so involved in these experiences. Is there a fine line between being involved and being too involved? Is there a line to walk and a balancing act to be conducted? I don’t have the answer, but I do think it’s a legitimate thought. I do think it could be a slippery slope, and I want to ensure I stay on the healthy side of the line. So, in an attempt to stay on the heathy side of the line, for at least the time being I’ve decided to be less involved on the weekends because usually we are busy and I have less time anyways. I’m not sure how this will go, but it’s just a thought for now and something I want to be cognizant of.
Also, some of you may have noticed, that I’m not writing a lot, or actually at all, about my daily cycles and our current efforts to get pregnant. So, I thought I’d share why. As an unexplained recurrent pregnancy loss person, I simply don’t see the point. I ovulate monthly. I don’t track my cycles other than to note CD1 and to guestimate when I should ovulate. We do the deed every 2 days around ovulation time. I don’t use ovulation sticks (the few times I have, I just get annoyed trying to remember to use them and always give up). My cycle is regular within 1-2 days every month, so I don’t really have any surprises. We do not use any type of medical support to get pregnant – i.e. no drugs (i.e. Clomid) and no procedures (i.e. IUI). Being that we deal with RPL, simply put we are as normal as it comes and getting pregnant is not our struggle.
So, I just don’t see the point on writing updates on our monthly cycle. I know we will get pregnant again. Yes, this cycle will mark 4 months since the end of our last miscarriage, and if I count our last biochemical pregnancy then it is only our 2nd cycle. Either way, it really isn’t that long. I know it will happen. Yet, I also know if this takes a few more months I will really start to worry that something more is going on, but I’ll cross that bridge when I have to. So, for now, I don’t write about it because what would I say – I ovulated when I should, my cycle was completely normal, we did the deed when needed, etc. I don’t want to write about it because it’s boring and I suspect most of you also don’t want to read that kind of an update. So, what it also means, is that I don’t have anything real to say on the topic at the moment.
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