What Will Tomorrow Bring?
I am sitting here and I am thinking.
I am thinking about what will be next and what is to come.
What will tomorrow bring?
What will life be like in 1 year, 5 years, 10 years or 50 years?
Like so many people, I always had an idea of what my future would look like.
And now, due to circumstances beyond my control, I have no idea. The plan is gone, and I have no idea what is coming next. There are so many versions of what life will look like, that I cannot seem to focus on just one right now. I am trying to accept that I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. I am trying to accept that there are many possible futures:
- Biological child(ren)
- Adoption of a non-biological child
- Partial biological child through a donor egg or donor sperm
I do not expect to make this decision today, but what I do know, is that although each potential future is different, I know whatever happens our future will be great!!
How do I know? How can I be so sure?
Simple. It will be my life and I will lead a great life. I will not live in a state of depression. I will not be consumed with grief for what was or what could have been. I am responsible for all the decisions I make. I am responsible to play the cards I’ve been dealt. I am responsible for the consequences of my decisions.
I will find a way. I will choose to be happy. I will choose to live. I will choose to make the most out of whatever happens.
Today I will accept that I do not have all the answers. Today, I will continue to wish, hope and dream. Tomorrow might bring a setback, and might not be as optimistic, but I can assure you, I will not spend too much time dwelling on the negatives.
My promise to myself and my husband is that whatever happens, I will make the most of it. Our future may not be what we planned, but we will live. We will enjoy. We will prosper. We will smile. We will cry. But, we will also laugh.
Here’s to accepting the unknown and to embracing an unplanned future.