My Perfect Breakdown


I hate October 15. Every single year, I hate it. Why?  Because October 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day, and at 7pm everyone is encouraged to light a candle. Every single year I participate by lighting a candle in one of my mom’s tea-light candle holders. And every single year, I hate that I participate. I hate that I know the experience of losing 5 babies.  I hate that I… Read More

While yesterday was the actual date set aside to remember our lost babies, I decided intentionally not to write about it.  I decided to write after the day was done, not because it wasn’t on my mind all day yesterday (it was), but because I wanted to write about the day in it’s entirety.  Rather then sharing my thoughts in anticipation of the day, I wanted to share my thoughts after I… Read More