Today is our nanny’s last day with us.  I’m devastated to be saying goodbye to her.  I know it’s not goodbye forever, as she will still babysit Little MPB and she also dog sits for us from time to time.

But even though I’ve known it’s coming and we’ve even been doing trial daycare days, no matter how I think about this, it’s a big change.

It’s a big change for Little MPB, yet he doesn’t even really understand the importance of today and what tomorrow will bring.

It’s a big change for Mr. MPB and I.  From a purely practical perspective we now have to drive Little MPB to daycare on a daily basis, which will be an annoyance since we both work from home and we have to find time to walk our dog again, as our nanny will no longer be doing that with Little MPB everyday.  Clearly, this change will force us to find a new daily groove. And I fully expect there to be some growing pains as we find that new groove.

And, more importantly, from an emotional perspective, our son is taking his first real steps into the world, and away from our nearly constant watchful eyes.  He doesn’t even realize it, but he is saying goodbye to his daily routine that he has known for almost his entire life.  And, he’s saying goodbye to daily visits with his best friend, his nanny.

Ultimately, I know he will be okay, I know he enjoys the daycare and he really enjoys playing with the other children. I truly suspect that in time, he’ll fall into his new routine and he’ll look forward to daycare days.

And so, I’m trying to focus on being excited for him.  I truly believe he is going to have fun and learn so much everyday!  But, my heart is heavy as my little boy is growing up.  I know this first pales in comparison to other firsts that he will experience in the future.  But, today, right now, this first feels like a momentous first.

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