Love
Some days deserve a moment of reflection. And today, is one of those days.
Today marks the day I married the most amazing man in the world.
Little did I know, our wedding would mark the start of a journey neither of us ever wanted. Little did we know that in an effort to have children we would walk through hell together. We literally spent a few years watching multiple babies die, and we even choose to terminate one life in an effort to preserve my health and life.
We both dreamed of spending our lives with children. Mr. MPB is meant to be a father. He is kind, loving and kids just love him. Knowing that my body is the reason we cannot have children has been hard. But, knowing that I am not able to give him the child he has always dreamed of has been one of the hardest things for me to accept.
It breaks my heart and it’s almost broken my soul.
Yet, his love hasn’t faltered.
He loves me regardless of my ability to procreate. He has stood by me and stood with me, through all of it. He has held my hand through countless procedures. He has been at every single appointment. He held me when I cried. He has worked hard so that I could leave my job in an effort to deal with the mental health consequences of our losses. He has made me laugh when I never thought I could laugh again. He has wiped away more tears then I can ever count.
Needless to say, in the last few years it hasn’t always been easy. In fact, we’ve had a lot of bad days. We’ve argued. We’ve disagreed. But, we’ve always come back together and stood by each other.
Every single day, I am reminded of why I love this man and why I want to spend my life with him. And why I want to continue trying to build our family through adoption. One day, some how, our dreams will come true.
Marriage isn’t always easy. Miscarriage is hard. Multiple miscarriage is damn hard. And while I would never have signed up to walk this path and lose our 5 precious lives, I’m thankful I’ve been walking with Mr. MPB at my side.
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Happy anniversary to you both! x
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Thank you!
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Happy anniversary! Marriage/relationships are definitely not easy. It’s work to keep them above and well. What’s important is that you’re both continuing to work together, through so the shit you’re dealt, and still manage to find yourselves both wanting it all. You’ve got a great partner there. I look forward to the day you become parents, because I can’t think of a couple that deserves it more! Happy love day! Xx
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*ALIVE & well
*through ALL the shit
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Awe, thanks! I realize I’m biased, but you are right, I do have a great partner. And so long as we continue to work together, we will have a great future together. 🙂
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So beautiful! Happy Anniversary!
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Thank you so much!! 🙂
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Happy anniversary to you and your love!
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Thanks! Now, if only we find a way to celebrate and not spend the entire evening working in the bathroom. 🙂
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Aww happy anniversary!!!
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Thank you!! 🙂
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Happy anniversary! Seems all the heartache made your relationship stronger. Your story is so inspiring. Enjoy your special day together!
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I think you are right, all the bad stuff has made us stronger. It hasn’t always been easy, but we’ve come through it together and that’s what really matters. 🙂
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Happy anniversary! I always feel like my husband and I have earned our years together through this journey…we have definitely been through a lot, learned, and loved. I know you feel the same! Congrats!
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Yes, I love your perspective. We’ve earned these years! And I absolutely love that you and your husband share such a similar love. 🙂
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❤️❤️ aww Happy Anniversary to you! Well done Mr MPB for being pretty darn awesome 😊
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Awe, thanks! He is a good man, and I’m thankful every single day he chose me. 🙂
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Happy Anniversary!!
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Thank you!
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Happy anniversary and wish you both many many years of joy and togetherness.
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Thank you my friend!!
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Wow. This really touched me.
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Awe, thank you. I truly am fortunate to have him in my life.
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Happy anniversary! Mr. MPB sounds like a wonderful man and I am so happy you two have each other. I hope whatever you have planned is wonderful 🙂
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Thank you so very much! I know I may be biased, but I too think he truly is a wonderful man.
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Happy anniversary! Hope you guys are able to do something fun today and this weekend to celebrate!
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Thank you Amy!! My only hope is that we don’t spend the entire weekend working on the bathroom reno!! 😃
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Happy anniversary! Hope you have a nice celebration planned
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Thank you! No plans that I know of, I am just hoping that we wont spend the evening working on our bathroom reno. 🙂
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Beautiful. Happy anniversary to you both! I hope you’re going to drink some fancy champagne tonight.
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Oh, that sounds like a good idea! I am expecting a quite evening and my only hope is that we don’t spend it working on the bathroom reno. 🙂
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Happy Anniversary!!
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Thank you! ☺
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Happy anniversary!
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Thank you! ☺
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Happy Anniversary Team MPB!!! X
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Thanks so much!
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Happy anniversary! Your love shines through all of your posts 🙂 I’m so glad you have each other.
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Thanks Mamaetmaman! I’m pretty glad we have each other too. ☺
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Awwww I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Ivf/if/rpl are terrible experiences, and they can destroy a person or a marriage… They can also bring a couple closer and makes us kinder, more loving and open people. You guys are a wonderful couple. I’m really excited about 2016 for you and mr mpb.
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What a beautiful post! Happy anniversary
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Happy Anniversary!!!
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Happy anniversary to you!
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Thank you!
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Wishing you a belated Anniversary! Thank you so much for sharing. You and Mr. MPB are amazing and wishing you a wonderful 2016!
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Happy Anniversary you guys!!
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Happy Belated Anniversary!!!
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