Good Days, Bad Days & Days Like Today
Everyone has good days and bad days. Some times the good lasts for days on end, and unfortunately so do the bad.
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Infertility and miscarriage seems to exaggerate the good and the bad. For me, the highs have been higher and the lows, so much lower. Lower then I could ever have imagined. Some times the emotional rollarcoster has bipolar in the extremes.
And then there are days like today. Today is neither good or bad. Today is just today. I do not feel pulled to either extreme. Instead I feel calm and peaceful. I just am.
Today, I can acknowledge that we’ve made it through everything. Through all of it, here I am living and breathing.
While I am not quite ready to shout from the roof tops that I have made it, that I have survived. I am ready to acknowledge that I suspect my future will include more good days then bad.
Today, I am not feeling particularly good or bad, instead I am feeling balanced.
I am full of the optimism that comes with the changing season. Just as spring is bringing new life, I feel rejuvenated.
I feel full of hope. I feel light and energetic.
I am remembering to breath without effort.
In fact, I feel ready to conquer whatever comes at me next.
I am ready to move beyond the grief and sadness that has lived in our hearts for too long. Part of me is ready to let go and fully embrace the unknown possibilities of the future.
I am realistic, and I know that bad days will still occur. This of course means means the lows will still be part of my life. But, I also realize that we will survive the lows and make it through to the other side. I am resilient. I realize that while our losses will always be part of my very being, they will not define my today or my tomorrows unless I let them. And I will be choosing to let life and love define my existence, not loss.
Honestly, today I feel the peace and calm that comes along with knowing that I will be okay. And so for today, I will enjoy.
I want to bottle this feeling.
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I am so inspired by this post. While I have not yet reached this state… I am hopeful to hear that it still does exist.. Because sometimes I fear I will never get there. Thanks for giving me hope today!
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It does exist! I just hope it last for more then an hour or two! 🙂
I hope you reach this state one day, and I hope it lasts when you find it. Love to you!
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I’m so glad to hear this. May you have many more calm, balanced days like this ahead 🙂 xxx
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May we all have more calm, balanced days! 🙂
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Absolutely!! Xx
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I love knowing that others, like myself, are taking steps to enjoy their day. Thank you for sharing.
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I am trying, and I figure that’s the least I can do.
I hope you enjoy your day too!. 🙂
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So glad to hear this!! Xo
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Awe, thanks!
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Inspiring! Please find a way to bottle it!0
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I am trying! I want to be able to capture this calm so I can bring it back on my future bad days and send it to other people on their bad days. 🙂
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This is beautiful, I’m glad you wrote it because it reminds us that in between the highs and lows we can exist peacefully. I remember feeling so devastated after the let down of unsuccessful pregnancies. But you get through it. And as more time passes, the bad days are less frequent. Best wishes!
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You are right, the really bad days somehow become less frequent, and life does seem to balance out and let us exist peacefully. Now, I just hope there are more peaceful days ahead for both of us! 🙂
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If you bottle it up, you should make little gift packages of it for people lol!! So happy that you’re feeling calm and peaceful 🙂
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What a brilliant idea! Now if only I can figure out how to bottle it up. 🙂
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You’re right- there aren’t just good days and bad days, there’s an in-between that can be enjoyed as well, if we choose to.
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That’s exactly what I was thinking. Just because today is neither good nor bad, doesn’t mean it worth enjoying for what it is. 🙂
I hope you are able to enjoy moments of calm and balance as well!
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Oh this feels sooooo good to me… and whilst it might not, (probably won’t) last, you have experienced it…. and so you will againxxxx
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It does feel pretty awesome! And, you are right, at least I am feeling it now regardless of how long it lasts for! And, hopefully I will experience the peace and calm again in the future.
I hope the exact same thing is true for you!
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Oh, I hope I feel it too sometime soon!!
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Just reading your words has such a calming effect! I’m so glad that even during the roller coaster of the up and down days, you can also find peace and balance. Hope it lasts as long as possible! xo
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I am so glad to hear that I helped bring some calm to your day! I hope you are also able to find more and more days of peace. 🙂
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If you are able to bottle it… please send some my way 🙂
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I will, I promise! 🙂
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I am thrilled to hear that you are feeling balanced. After living what probable like a roller coaster, it must feel amazing to just feel steady and calm for awhile. I hope you get more and more of those days as time goes on!
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Thanks so much! I hope you too get more and more days of calm and peace!
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Good for you and finding the balance. It’s not a easy journey. I wish you more days like these.
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Thank you so much. I hope you too find days just like this!
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What a wonderful place to be…
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Thank you, it does feel wonderful. I just hope I can hold onto it.
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