MPB, Canada
I shared our story of losing our third baby on a 1 in 10, a blog dedicated to raising awareness to pregnancy terminations for medical reasons. Many of you have read my original post, Owning Our Darkest Moment, but I want to share this link for those who have not.
Wife, professional, animal lover and mother to five babies lost too early.
We have lost five babies much too early to Recurrent Pregnancy Loss. Although each one has been devastating and heartbreaking, today I will share the story of our third baby, our little baby girl.
From the start, the doctors knew in all likelihood she would eventually die. It was just a matter of time, and therefore a matter of waiting. We waited for weeks on end for her little heart to stop beating, watching at each ultrasound as her heart rate just kept dropping, too scared to even consider a medical termination. Then, one day everything changed when I developed a septic infection and the situation put my life at high risk. Full story.
My Perfect Breakdown 
So many aspects of your story resonated with me. I too, just knew I was carrying a little girl (confirmed by pathologist report). Fortunately for me, the decision was easier because my pregnancy failed to progress past 6 weeks as well, despite the gestational sac continuing to develop. It is amazing that your little fighter’s heart continued to beat. There’s something so very special about that. But you made the right decision. Your life was in danger, and her prognosis was not good already as it was. I can’t even imagine how difficult this was for you, but it inspires me so much seeing where you are now.
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Thank you so much for sharing your experience, and reinforcing that no matter how someone loses there baby it is traumatic and unfair. It may just be the cruelest thing that someone can endure. And I am sorry you know the pain so intimately.
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You are so brave for sharing your story. I wish I could just hug you right now. Thank you for sharing with us such a tender and hard moment. XO
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Thank you very much for your kind words. I continue to talk about this part of our journey because I think it is so important for people to know how the medical system treats people like us, and to share the extreme heartache that was involved. Thank you again.
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I’m so sorry for your loss of this little girl and the others also. I am very glad though that you are here to share your story. I know that abortion, for whatever reason, is not gone into lightly. *hugs* You are a true fighter and may your dreams come true!
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Thank you so much for your kind words. I am touched by your compassion and caring, thank you.
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